life so boring...

2009-01-10T23:49:00.003+08:00

Tag this ppl to do this quiz:

1. Zhi Hui

2. Dun Hui

3. Melvin

4. Jolene

5. Carmen

6. Felicia

7. Ain

8. Li Xing

9. Wamg Yu

1) How did you meet no.4?- CCU.

2) Do you have any crush up there ?- no

3) What would u do if u hadn't met no.1 ?- nth much will change... haha.

4) What would you do if no.4 & no.2 were going out with u?-i will become a big light bulb

5) How did u meet no.8?- Through CCA (NPCC) at HTA CCU

6) Is no.2 ur best friend ?-if i were to say i m not my own best friend then who is...

7) Who is no.9 best fwen ?- How m i suppose to noe...

8) Have u ever dated no.1 ?- i m a real man...

9) Do u miss no.4 ?- ya... miss her so much wahahaha

10 ) What do you think of no.6 ?- Garfield

11) What do u think of no.7 ?- wat else to say... my granddaughter...

12) Who does no.3 like?- nagging

13) Have u been into no.8's house?- no chance

14) Do u love no.9 ?- i m a real man once again

15) Do u trust these ppl?- of cos... without all of them... my life will ne like... no life... so lucky to meet all of u... friend forever..

2008-12-27T14:45:00.005+08:00

when was the last time i updated??? haha exactly 2 mths ago... alot of thing happen in this 2 mths... i hav already pass out from my ammo tech course and now an official ammo tech... it fun... but tiring... ya and merry belated xmas... went to aunty hse for gathering during eve and nth more for the next day...

the rest of the thing let not say le.... haiz... being very emo this few weeks... for sth but not gng to reveal... today went to play bball... i hurt my left ankle once again... donno wat happen but it is beginning to get swollen now... we will see wat will happen ba... i hope it will get worsen... don intend to see doctor for it... bcos tml got duty hav to do it... don wan activate ppl as it is on sun... it is like so mean... if i m the one activated i will be like damn... so ya.... today mummy birthday... happy birthday.... gng out for dinner later.... ok got to go... take care everyone...

i wan to ask u for tat but i noe it impossible... wat can i do to change u... i really hope for it... can we...??? yesterday i ask u whether wan go night safari with mi alone... u said it weird... but u can go out alone with him... i don understand... as u say maybe i tink too much... but it all like.... maybe u feel more comfortable with him... then i will hav to admit tat i lost.... i m sorry.... how i hope... how i hope... hope... hope... hope.... drawf pls lead mi a new way....

2008-10-27T19:32:00.004+08:00

yesterday went fishing with kel they all at punggol end... damn emo... haha... b4 tat went to play bball and old injury is acting again... haiz... pain coming back again... recent bball game have been exciting... haha... fun... at least all running around... haha.... no one walking(kel)... haha... raymond improving... haha... good... next week will sure play again de...
back to punggol end... fishing half way... did sth stupid... type out a 8 pages msg... and send it to some one... haiz... i regretted??? doubt so... at least i did say wat i wanna say... it has been in my mind for pass few weeks le... it is alway heavy in my mind... but by saying out... wat is the use??? no use at all... as wat i expected... no reply at all... hopefully i wont disturb her again le ba... but juz cant get off my mind... seriously... it had been or 3 years and 5 mths le... it not on and off... it always in my mind... wat i wanna tel u is all in there le... only waiting for u to make a decision... i really hope to noe wat u tink... reply mi if u see this ok??? anyway if u don i wont force u... as i hav already expected this... hopefully i wll be able to get u out of my mind for the time being... and after tat let see wat happen... i tink probably this is wat i can do to get u out... hope to go through ur hard time with u... but i tink it impossible... i noe... cos u r alway so independent tat y i nv get u off mi... ur strong mentality is sth i alway like... even though i written all up there i noe i wont be able to get rid of u out of my mind... it impossible to forget u... i hav to admit... sometime i juz don dare to make the first step... no confident at all... ok... i will cut all this naggy stuff le... wanna end it here le... will be waiting for ur reply... hopefully...

will we still be friend??? i donno... hopefully... it all about hopefully... keep waiting... really hoping for ur reply no matter wat... juz let mi noe... 请原谅，原谅我太冲动

2008-10-05T18:28:00.002+08:00

i m so stress... study study and study... btw after BMT i hav been posted as AMMO tech... job is to handle all types of AMMO... hundreds of it... working hard for it... suffering... every week every day studying about AMMO... sometime i m tinking y m i studying for it.... izzit for the rank.... but i really cant take it le... wanted to find someone to tok abt it... but seem like everyone is so so busy... so hav to take it myself ba... haiz.... 3 tests in 2 weeks le... stil got 10 more tests to go... and 2 more project... hope i can take it ba... hopefully completing it.... tink stil got another 5 to 6 weeks to suffer ba... hopefully can go through it... and get through it ba... work for the coporal rank and oso months later sgt... coming and working hard for u...

and yeah... i hav got a new hair style... finally can grow longer hair le... haha... here is my new hair style... eventhough i noe it stil so short... sobz sobz...

byebye... take care everyone... back to suffering le... don miss mi so much...

2008-09-18T23:14:00.005+08:00

alo.... haha.... pop for 1 week le.... tml will be another big day... will noe my vocation tml le... so nervous... was hoping to get into sispec... but but... my back is giving mi problem now... donno wat to do... very mao dun... haiz... how??? help mi!!! but since everything is set le... wait for fate to decide for mi ba...

Wed---last week was my pop... is my last day in tekong... will miss it.... haha... but finally able to get through the training for 3 mths le... i am so happy... finally finish le... will miss my life there... but for one thing i wont miss is some of my platoon mates.... i wont elaborate more... haha... since it all over le... parade was a success... oh ya... thank mum and jason for attend my pop parade if not for u all i will be very lonely de... thank you...at night went to a pub at sembawang to celebrate kel birthday... with his family, duan and ray... sing, chit chat then til ard 5 then go home le....

Thurs---met up with kel again and oso duan dine and ray... while waiting for kel at mac saw leemei and jocelyn... they walk pass mi then i call them they turn to mi for the 1st time then turn away like donno mi like tat.... then i call them for a 2nd time... then they acknowledge mi... haha... they say they didnt notice it mi... and ren bu chu wo... haha... so funny... then after tat kel came le... abt to go le... cheryl walk pass and kel say hi to her... but once again she nv notice mi again... haha... then she walk walk then suddenly stop... then notice tat it mi... same again say ren bu chu wo... haha... perhaps i slim down le... tat y cause all this misunderstanding... haha... then carmen came from behind oso surprise to see mi... haha... after went to amk central... kel suddenly say he tot mi and cheryl quarrel... haha... so funny... after amk central went to bugis to walk around.... made a custom made cap... i like it... but the colour choose wrong le... haha... but nvm... haha...

Fri---went to my friend temple to help out the big day... so nth much happen... haha...

Sat---early in the morning went to play bball with kel, ray, MS, chia hao and piglet... haha.... u all wan noe who is piglet??? don tel u all... haha... as usual... play against each other... then in the last match the last ball... which i score.... and i donno how oso... it amazing and tat is where i hurt my back... til now stil hurting... argh... faster recover pls... then went to bugis to collect my cap... then went home le...

Sun---same thing went to temple and help out... nth much...

Mon---went to kbox with kel, ray, duan, dine and ZD... had a fun night.... sing like hell from 7 til 12... but i m down with flu tat day... so singing suck... haha... i discover sth alway when i go to singing session... i m alway sick then cant sing well but i stil went... donno y oso... haha.... i miss the qing ge wang that mi kel and ZD sang... each of us 1 chorus... haha... 12 min... wat a song... so difficult to sing... haha... i mean i tune... haha...

Tues---went down to my friend temple to help him keep the thing... keep til ard 5 plus then everyone went home... i sit down there wait til morning 7 plus alone seeing ah bee whole family slping down there... haha... til his father woke up then i went home le... haha...

Wed---went over to ah bee there to help him return the dragon to ppl then went home le... nth much le...

Thurs---today... afternoon went to meet jol and jason and chin yang at J8 to buy thing for carmen birthday... walk for very long then donno wat to buy in the end finally found le... then buy go basement eat then went off le.. i send jol home again... haha... then actually wanna meet kel they all de... but suddenly felt very tired so went home le... then had dinner with my family then came home then now sitting in front of the com to blog lor.... jason complain i nv blog... haha...

now waiting for my vocation... tml 10 will noe le... will blog and notice u all asap i got it... haha... good luck to mi.... take care everyone... nitez nitez... take care... bb...

Photo of POP will be uploaded soon

recently seem like we hav been toking much lesser le... donno y... maybe she is busy ba... don wan disturb her oso... hope she will do well... muz take care ok??? missing her...

2008-08-24T09:36:00.009+08:00

hihi... ppl... times flies... really... i m already 2mths and 3 weeks into my ns life le... bmt is gng to end in 17 days le... 10 sept... it will be my pop... haha... so fast... will miss life in there... especially my bunk mates... hope tat we will be anle to post to the same vocation together... while i noe it impossible... but juz hoping for it... hav to thank all my commanders for making my life in bmt so fruitful... haha... and 1 thing.... ppl i cut down 15 kg in the period of time... haha... omg... haha... and my marksman... haha... so happy i got it... actually was losing hope after the day shoot cos i only got 12/16 for it and i actually needed 28 out of 32 to get marksman.... it was like wth... i need 16/16 which is a full mark for night shoot to get marksman... down goes my confident... haiz... so was preparing to juz forget abt it and juz pass my shooting which only required 19/32... during night shoot my assistance told mi i did miss so there goes my hope... haiz... but at least pass ma.... but then... there is alway a twist in the tale... when we got our result... i went to take a look and i got 28/32... i was shock and happy... omg... i got marksman... so happy... night shoot full mark... even i cant believe it and keep on double checking it... and it not a dream... haha... happy for mi??? hah.. finally i m a marksman... now then i noe i m good at handling rifle and not revolver... haha... i love my wife... she stil don hav a name yet... but.... we will be divorcing in 17 days le... haha... hav to thank her for giving mi the confident in mi now... and let work together for the last time before divorcing... hav to win champion for drill com... with her... we can do it... haha... last week has alot of training for drill squad... cos drill com is on this wed... so jing zhang... our sgt keep on saying we can win... is this a confident boast or izzit true... as a ci last time... i believe this is only a boast... but any thank sgt for giving us tat confident... we will do our best and defend the champion status which the last batch did... we promise... jia you drill squad... wish mi good luck... and and... my stamina... haha... from first run in ippt 2.4km i ran 12min04 sec(bronze)... then to the latest 2nd run i did a 11min08 sec(silver)... omg wat a improvement i was shock too... haha... next run and oso the last i will be aiming for 10min21sec(gold)... wish mi good luck one more time... and i juz finish my 16km route march last week... so shag... then next up will be this coming week on thursday the last and finally route march 24km... i can do it... and oso with my wife... haha... wish mi good luck for one last time... haha... ok tat all for ns... will update when i pass out of bmt... and leave tekong... haha.... KRETREL COY is the best and PLATOON 2 is the best of the best and SECTION 1 will be the best of the best of the best... and BED 8 is the BEST of the BEST of the BEST of the BEST... haha... and will alway remember my time in there... alakerpompor... matakongsi...

informal platoon 2... formal will be post when it ready... as there is some problem in the printing...

heard tat sec 3 had been promoted to SGT le... congratulaion... but... but... haiz... recently heard from jason tat sec 3 got problems and i somehow knew some abt it... haiz... really disappointed... and felt tat i m such a failure tat i cant help them and lead them through their starting course of CL life... knowing u all get bullied but cant be there to protect it really make mi tink tat i m useless... i m sorry sec 3... wat happen to my sec 3 tat hav so many cooperation and team spirit during the CL camp... i know it impossible to go back to the same le... i all my fault... haiz... izzit they are not ready??? or izzit the way tat i plan the path for them??? i believe it the latter one... i m really sorry about it... i m not a successful CI in the end... after i left i tot i hav gotten a good path for them... but in the end is only wat i tot... as my sgt alway say u tink i tot who confirm... i got it wrong in the end.. and i really cant confirm whether they can do it now... only can hope for it... juz pure hope... i got no confident now... not on them but in myself... i got nth more to say but to totally leave u all alone now... putting my hand off u all totally... and let the other more successful CI to lead u all... all over again... and for mi i will hav to run away and hide to avoid embassrassment.... u can say tat i give up le... finally... or u all can say tat i m a coward i don mind... cos i m one... lastly... sorry to my babies... take care... i noe u all can do it... it only u all had a bad leader in mi... your new leader will bring out your potential again and bring back all the team spirit tat i hav seen b4 in your CL camp... i believe... i believe u all can do it... is only whether u all wan or not... tink about it... SORRY... take care...

and hey... CI out there gngdown every weeks make sure dont let mi noe tat u all punish them over the limit or being unreasonable or else... i m not saying tat u all cant punish them or scold them but pls be reasonable... remember... they are CL le... not cadets anymore... i know u all hav your own style... it good... but i hope u all tink back my style... i will nv scold cadets once they turn CL or NCO... unless they do sth seriously wrong... know your limit and i also hav my limit even though i m not a CI le but pls remember wat u all write to mi ask mi to come back mi to come back whenever i m free... i will do it if u all go overboard... trust mi... and don test mi... pls... i got my patient...

yesterday went to meet kel.. duan and ray... same thing sit down tok abt our ns life and wat gng on in the outside world after went to play pool for a while.... then go back mac sit down chat and play psp til ard 430 then go home le... reach home sleep ard 6... then wake up at 730... wth... so early wake up... donno wat i m doing... haha... later gonna book in at 1930... oh ya... i got 12 days of block leave after pop... hooray... haha... can hav a good rest b4 post out... command sch... hope i will be able to go there... haha.... hao la... will end here le... go take a little more rest then get ready my stuff... haha... byebye... don miss mi ar... in 17 days u all will hear mi saying POP LOH... haha... bye... take care...

do u noe how i feel...? if u noe pls let mi noe... cause i juz donno how to confess... i m afraid of failure again... haiz... how? how? how? i donno... pls hint mi if u noe it... maybe... juz maybe... 我不配... haiz..

2008-08-10T15:18:00.002+08:00

hi everyone... 2 months into ns le... anyone misses mi...??? haha... perhaps no one... haha... erm start off with ns life... almost everything over le... field camp, sit test... all sucessfully over... up next will be my marksman shooting his week... important as anything... once this pass... i can ensure my pop to be a happy one le... actually to let u all noe... i m quite stress... i m afraid tat i might not be able to make it... but... i will try my best de... after tat will be ippt and soc and everything end in tekong and i do not need to go back anymore le... haha... then to posting... hoping to get into command sch... hope i can make it ba...

yesterday went to see my np cadet... they were having npd observance in amk... after tat cheryl, amirul and another sec 1 guy follow mi to 438 for basketball session which earlier planned... haha... it a fun session... very long time didnt play le... haha... my skill are stil there... my 3 pointer is as accurate as ever... maybe better le... haha... so happy... when we played 3 on 3... donno whether m i lucky or unlucky... cheryl is alway in my team... haiz... so sad... yet so happy cause won almost every game... haha... too bad i m too pro le... cheryl not u pro ar... is mi... haha... after tat send cheryl to bus stop with chia hao and amirul oso... after tat went to cb market with kel and ray eat then went home le... stay at home whole day... boring... today whole day oso nth to do... bored bored bored... later hav to book in at 730 le... even more boring... xianz... hao la... try to blog again next week... will only book out on sat next week... boring again... haiz.... byebye everyone.. muz miss mi ar... and one la thing i slim down le... haha...

donno wat to do... should i tell u or not... i hav no confident... i m afraid... i m so coward... i don hope to lost u as a friend either... so should i let u noe anot... i really donno... i miss u... i love u...

2008-07-06T18:16:00.002+08:00

hihi everyone... one mth in ns life le... life in tekong is fun although it tired... haha.... enjoying every training with my bunk mate and platoon mate... haha... tues is a big day for mi... i getting marry le... haha... oops.... i mean i getting my rifle le... haha... hav to give her a name... but donno wat name... so ppl can give mi some opinion??? pls tag at my tagboard... and let mi noe... ok... will further blog next week le... cause in 1 hour time hav to book in again le... will be booking out on friday this week haha.... byebye everyone... take care... remember to advise mi on the name of my beloved wife the sar21... haha...

i m frustrated... and i m confused... i doesnt noe wat i wan and doesnt noe wat to do next... haiz...

2008-06-05T14:33:00.002+08:00

oops... forgotten to thank someone... so i m back here.... to my real last post... haha.... yesterday went to hav dinner at grassroot club naked fish with mandy... meng lie... jason.... shu wei... zhi hui and boon hong... it my farewell PARTY.... haha.... thank for the slipper.... when i come out again then we meet again ok??? promise??? then after tat when to amk central walk ard then nth to do then went to ntuc walk for a few min then went home le... mi ,mandy and jason took the same bus... jason reach home then get down le... so i acc mandy to hougang... then in the end decide to send her home... haha... then after tat went home myself lor... hao la... will really end her le... friends out there thank for everything in this past week.... bb... see ya soon...

let it be the 1st time but nv a last time ok??? promise???

2008-06-05T00:56:00.003+08:00

hi ppl here to blog... probably for the last time le... cos i will be away for 2 weeks from fri and will be stepping into ns life for 2 years le... omg... it like so fast... haha....

ok... let start off with last week annual camp... it will be my last camp as a CBSS CI le... on the first day it was like a great mess... haha... the wya the nco handling thing... omg... cant take it... so in the end at night tok to them was like in a very serious tone... but luckily after wat we told them they manage to overturn wat they did wrong to right the following day... to see thm change like this give mi a great sense of success... and on the sec day... when hsving camp fire... it is my last night as ci le... so sad... and oso touch by wat my cadet did... thank nco.... thank ci especially jason and oso my belove sec 3 and not to forget mandy and alishia and shu wei... i was so touch in the camp fire... they gave mi a present with msg for mi... even though after i read it in the camp i didnt cry which is wat u all hope for... sorry to disappoint u all but i hav to admit when i read it at home tears begin to roll down my cheek le... it really touching... ok juz a few more words to all the cadet...

sec 1 and 2--- continue to learn more and more... the more u learn the more u can succeed....

sec 3 --- my babies... haha.... u will be cl soon le... pls pls grow up... the unit need u to soar to a high... ok??? pls promise mi tat... u can definitely do it.... my letter pls keep it through your cl life after tat if u wanna throw juz throw... and if u all got any problem pls go to the cis.... they will help u... no matter wat problem even if it personal problems... they will help u... but of cos not all ci as understanding as mi... i know... haha.... pls do help mi do my part as i cant get involve oso... thanks...

sec 4--- like mi... the last camp for u all as nco... some might wan to go for ci course... but study muz come first ok??? i hav to say sorry again for neglecting u all last year when u all juz start out as nco... really sorry... but now since it over le... pls concentrate on your study... thank for your contribution to cbss npcc.... all the best for your o or n level....

ci--- pls continue wat i had left... muz lead the cadet... don neglect amyone like we did to the sec 4 ok??? u all can do it...

ok... last paragraph b4 i leave the posting site... then come back 2 weeks later to see my tag board kanna flooded... haha... it really fast tat 8 years of np life juz pass like this... it like only yesterday... really cant bear to leave it... but everything will hav to come to an end... so it the time now to let go... the one who i cant let go most the sec 3 and oso ci... hope it will go successfully with mi ba... u all don disappoint mi ar... and i oso hav to thank officer too for helping mi to grow up over the 8 years... mr wong... mr chan... who help mi through my cadet and nco life.... mr ang and mrs phua... thank for guiding mi through ci life... hope i will be back someday to see u all again... a promise to the unit... u will alway be in my heart.... i will be back whenever i m free... CBSS NPCC JIA YOU!!! 2 more days to go le... will be missing singapore for 2 weeks... haha... no more chicken rice... satay... and chao guo tiao... haha... ok before i leave... this will be the last photo i will be taking with my hair still on... anyone who see this muz miss it ar... i mean it a muz.... bb everyone... don miss mi ar... oops... i mean muz miss mi hor... i will miss u all too... bb...

2008-05-28T21:59:00.001+08:00

lin you jia new album coming out loh... this is his new song... first hit.... i like it alot... hope u like it too....

神秘嘉宾歌词：
作曲：郑楠作词：陈信延

我踩著梦的阶梯
走进了
一座迷雾森林
谁的心事
被天使窃听
泛起涟漪
时间它帮我设计
下一秒
谁是神秘嘉宾
小心翼翼
揭开了面具
掌声鼓励

谁闯进我的场地
谁让我措手不及
我早就预备的剧情
你却给我一笔
狡猾地
致命地正中我红心

我跟谁变得亲密
谁逐渐离我远去
华丽演出共襄盛举
唯有你的背影
友情客串却留下刻骨铭心的回忆

你按了我的门铃
我终於
从呵欠中苏醒
紧张兮兮
对你说一句
欢迎光临
全场观众都离席
剩下我
还在原地寻觅
耳边听著
谢幕的歌曲
走不出去

谁闯进我的场地
谁让我措手不及
我早就预备的剧情
你却给我一笔
狡猾地
致命地正中我红心

我跟谁变得亲密
谁逐渐离我远去
华丽演出共襄盛举
唯有你的背影
友情客串却留下刻骨铭心的回忆

我搬到谁的隔壁
谁成了我的邻居
鸣谢生命有你参与
笑纳我的邀请
曲终人散却写下不会结束
的结局

hope u like it as mi...

2008-05-21T18:25:00.003+08:00

will we be seeing this tonight???

tonight will be the UEFA CL final between chelsea and man united... it will be one of the greatest night... ok... i wont tok much... we wil juz wait and see...

and lastly... friends out there... i will be enlisting to ns on the 6 of june... so don miss mi... haha...

2008-05-11T23:45:00.002+08:00

now as i m blogging the match between united and wigan is already into the 82 min le... and giggs juz scored adding to the 1st half penalty by ronaldo it all but certain round up the title for united... gloryglory united... CHAMPION of England in sight.... all the way...

2008-05-08T01:54:00.000+08:00

erm juz hav a new friend test... so my friend wat r u all waiting for pls try it out and i will noe who is my true friend to mi... haha...bb..

2008-05-08T01:03:00.006+08:00

yo... i m back... before i start i would like to show how is my leg le...

and this is wat happen... for 3 weeks le...

in the last 3 weeks... my leg hav been bandage for 5 times already... it a great record... haiz... for 3 weeks... my mind and my activities cant function probably at all... haiz... so sad... erm... when was the last time i stay at home and rot for so long??? most probably is when i m a baby and when i stil donno wat is the world gng on and through.... haha... haiz... since already happen le... nth to help le... juz wait and hope for it to recover asap... haiz... in my 8 years bball life... this is the first time i ever had such a serious injury haiz... juz hope it wil recover in time for annual camp and atc ba...

to cheryl... haha... really donno whether stil can play bball anot... hope stil can ba... okie...? haha...

ronaldo was name the Writer's and PFA player of the year award last week... can anyone say anything??? he juz deserve it.... 40 goals for a winger who was the last to do it... maybe i haven even being born... and i tink is denis law tink he got 46... haha... so he juz deserve it... great season... 2 more games to go can he break the record?? needing 6 goals... erm... doubt so... but whether will he do it anot he already hav a fabalous season... juz need a few more goals in the next two game and 2 win in 2 games will see them lift the EPL and UEFA CL title... all the way u all can do it... haha...

ok... next my soccer analysis... this weekend wil be the last weekend of BPL le... season coming to an end le... haiz... after this week donno wat i can do for sat and sun le... haha... but anyway everything hav to come to an end... haha... ok now i wil let all soccer fan noe sth funny... haha... there is one funny thing tat is link with spanish laliga... haha... every year when real madrid win the title... united will win it... when barca win it chel wil win and when valencia win it arsenal wil win... believe mi or not... u can check it out yourself... and this year real had already won it so is there anymore thing tat i had to say... united are in the driving sit now... sun against wigan away might be a tricky tie... but hopefully everything wil go smoothly anything other than a win will see the title hope gone if chelsea will to win... so... but cant say anything thing right now as anything can happen because it the prem league... haha... so united champ??? we will see...

lastly when i m hoping my leg to recover i oso wish all my CBSS NPCC CADETS do well in their MYE... u all can do it... JIA YOU... a few more days to go only... endure it.... ALL THE BEST....

the photo below is sponsored and edited by JOL JOL...

lastly CCU team and CBSS NPCC... I LOVE U ALL... haha...

2008-05-03T19:35:00.002+08:00

argh... my ankle seem to be getting from bad to worst... haiz... now my only entertain is to stay at home and watch tv or psp only... the swollen came to my heed... so... aiya... don say much le la... juz blog to let those who care abt mi noe wat is gng on and ask u all not to worry... haha... ok... off to watch soccer now... utd vs westham... win today then next week wigan then they wil retain the champ... all the bestt... and oso sorry to xiuting... wanted to attend ur birthday but my leg bu zhen qi... sorry... anyway happy birthday xiuting... and oso ray... happy birthday.... hope can recover in time to celebrate with u... only 2 days away...

2008-04-28T01:50:00.002+08:00

yo... back to post... haiz... got one bad new... my ankle injury worsen le... trip by my bro on fri then make it worsen le... need ard another one to two week to recover as wat the doc says... but i tink my recovery time will be within tat range ba... hopefully... cause alot of days nv go out le... damn xianz lor... haha....

yeah today F1 spanish GP... kimi Rakkoinen got 1st my favourite... lead all the way from 1st lap and 2nd come massa... ferarri 1-2... haha... now kimi is on top of the standing for driver and ferrari on top for constructor standing... hahah... yeah tat great... but after all it not the greatest race of all... cos only 13 drivers finish it... maybe because there are too may corners le... so driver will tense to overtake more aggressively tat maybe cause so many cars to retire... another major incident is heikki from McClaren ran and bump into the so called wall when his tyre punctured but thankfully i tink he should be alright maybe only a minor concussion wish him all the best and recover soon...

and oso upon hoping that he will recover soon i oso hope tat i will recover soon so i wil be able to go out le... haha... lookinh forward for next race in france monaco... eager to see how many car will crash as the track there are narrow almost no overtaking is allow... so the only will to win is start off well and get pole position for the race... so hopefully it will be a great race...

man united lost to chelsea and nth more to say le... but one thing is we are stil leading thru goal difference with only 2 matches to go they will stil be favourite.. so all the way... tues against barcelona... at OT... hopefully wil get a positive result and get to russia in may... all the best...

more update will be posted when i feel like updating... haha... bb... nitez nitez...

2008-04-21T01:34:00.003+08:00

yo... back to post... tink wil be very free to post this few days... maybe weeks cos i injured my leg... to be more detailed i actually injured my tendon in my ankle... so the doctor say i might need at the very least two weeks to recover... haiz... cant go out for 2 weeks leh... u ask mi to stay at home one day i wanna die le... don say 2 weeks... haiz... anyway no choice la...i can oso take this time to really rest my exhausted body le... haha... and below is how my leg look like now... friend if wanna visit mi let mi noe ar... haha... u r most welcome...

this mid week UEFA CL semi final coming le... united wil hav a full squad to choose from even though i hav to agree tat they r not really in the best of form gng into this but i stil believe they will be able to grind out the result at nou camp... so no big worries... and sat against chelsea... as i say before if united are able to bring a 3 points lead to stamford bridge then they will be champion for this season so my prediction stil remain the same... haha... all the way... will be a great week in football... will be able to watch everything... as i can only stay at home to rest and rot... haha.... all the best united... rooney pls hav better finishing.... u can do it...

my starting line up for barca is gng to be...

-----------------------van der sar-------------------------

--W brown--------R ferdi-------N Vida-------P erva------

--------O hargreaves-----M carrick----P scholes----------

----C Ronny--------------------------------L Nani--------

----------------------W Rooney---------------------------

i m in thorough pain.... hope to recover soon...

2008-04-13T18:51:00.004+08:00

i m sry but i hav to say to u... my feeling is back for u... i hav been trying to control... but... i stil cant do it... i m sry... i wont let u noe... i do wan thing to happen again... juz remains like this... pls.. i hope...

i wont be trusting someone anymore... juz donno wat is she tinking and watever she said donno whether true anot... i will juz not trust her... wil only listen to her only...

ok... tat it...

tonight arsenal vs man utd... haha... big match... if united were to win it tonight... retaining of champion wont be a prob... all the way...

2008-04-08T23:31:00.002+08:00

latest news ferdi will be in contention to face roma tml... but wat i tink is even if he is fit he wil be rested to face arsenal which is more important.... so come on everything is looking well for united at the moment once again except for vidic who is out for another week but oso in contention to face arsenal this weekend... 1st choice central defensive pairing will be back sooner rather than later it a great news... another news is neville and silvestre will be in the squad for roma tml with either one starting isnt it another great news with both of them out for so long they will be raring to go... come on united... 7 - 1 to united again.. hope so...

2008-04-08T01:00:00.005+08:00

UNITED draw yesterday against boro... wth so sad to see it lor... haiz... but to come back to draw after a goal down when u r playing away and not playing welll and oso with defensive prob... izzit a good result??? i donno... i felt tat they back down abit after they score the first goal after juz 10 min.... they should hav built on it but they didnt... and oso having both ferdi and vida injured isnt a good thing... their defence is not like b4... juz hope tat pique wil come in good against roma, arsenal... but will ferdi be back in time for arsenal??? after scan show his injury not serious... anyway can be 80 % sure tat he wont be playin against roma... hope he wil return for arsenal... against roma united is already leading 2-0 le so i dont see it a prob to put them off... so it the weekend arsenal game which i m worried... i believe if united were to get the 3 points advantage to stamford bridge then i can see them lifting the trophy again... as in UEFA CL i tink if they get thru to Semifinal... i really don see them having prob against barca... with messi and ronaldinho stil out at the moment (hope they wont be back for semi) as i tink they are the players tat wil cause united prob... so all the best to united... arsenal,chelsea,westham,blackburn and wigan to go in prem league... hopefully they can lift it again... as i alway believe whenever united hav a blip or slip they will alway come back strong... so arsenal be careful....

prediction
arsenal = 3 - 0
blackburn = 2-1
westham = 2 - 0
chelsea = 2 - 1(break chelsea unbeaten streak at home)
wigan = 3 - 0
united CHAMPION

as in UEFA CL roma shldnt be a prob now... barca(i hope schalka 04 get thru though) got real chance with barca current form and injuries... and hopefully for final hope to see liverpool thru... united hav good form against them so hopefully everything will go as i predicted so united will lift the CL oso... it will be a great season...

prediction
roma = 7 - 1(reapeat of lat year)
barca (A) = 2 - 1
barca (H) = 3 - 0
liverpool = 4 - 1
european CHAMPION

to Vida, ferdi and nani... get well soon ur team needs u....
to rooney, ronny and tevez.. start to score more goal...
anyway thing alway donno come my way in my life til now at the moment so i might be tinking too much abt the score tat i predicted but 1 thing to put in mind anything is possible...
so be prepared... united all the way...

above... united best...

JIA YOU!!!

sometime i was wandering y is she treating mi differently from others???? i donno...
does she really mean wat she says??? i donno...
alway ask mi to shut up... ok lor... shut up le... then wat happen??? i donno...

anyway i juz donno anything la... haha... don care le..

to jol... cheer up la... as i say le don tink too much... now tink le oso no use... hav to face it ok??? take care... cheer uup...

2008-04-02T22:35:00.000+08:00

waa... damn xianz... my fault again... bloody hell.. ok stop tat's it...

2008-03-31T02:46:00.002+08:00

damn fucking angry now lor... WTH... wat did i do wrong... btw... my last warning... i tink i did warn it b4 in my blog le... if u all got anything unhappy with mi or wat juz come straight to mi pls... don do it by saying behind mi or saying it in blog la... come on... don be aqua pls lor... so til today i noe tat there are aqua in my sec 4 NCOs... oops... i mean CBSS NPCC NCOs... they are not mine totally not... i wont care abt them anymore... don act in front of mi pls la... which eye did u see tat i m BIAS... i m juz joking with u.... if u cant take joke then tat it.... i wont joke with u anymore or even tok to u again anymore... this is my style... i hav my owe style... haha... and i did ask tat is anyone unhappy with mi during the end of the training and i DID juz to remind u... and no one speak up... this is wat i mean by AQUA... the whole SPEECH DAY NPCC SUPPORTING CONTIGENT can be witness for mi and final reminder.. i did ASK... don give reasons or i mean stupid EXCUSES la... haha... LAME EXCUSE... anyway i said to all NCO... if u all not happy with mi then i wont go down anymore... so pls juz kindly let mi noe... don let mi waste my time on this bunch of WANG EN FU YI ppl... total waaste of my time toking to them... if u all tink i naggy pls let mi noe... i don wanna waste my saliva, time , strength and transportation fees anymore on NPCC... i had enough... anyway my time is up soon... u all wont be seeing mi soon... so i believe alot of u should be happy.... and one more thing if u tink tat u really did enough is only wat u tink... as i say b4 CIs got eyes to see wat all of u r doing... so nvm u can accuse CIs for overlooking but remind u one more time... WE HAV EYES... DON TREAT US AS AN IDIOT, STUPID, BLUR or wat ever bad thing tat can describe... juz tel us if u don trust us... i say b4 if there is no trust in us then there is no need for us to be there... pls come to mi immediately if do not wan to see us down anymore...

lst few words for my sec 3 and i mean MINE no one is allow to snatch them away from mi... unless i pass on to anyone... will anyone disagree with mi...? i don care at all... i say again... they are MY SEC 3.... sec 3 without mi... pls be more grown up ok...? wat ever i wanna let u all noe or teach u all are already 80 to 90 percent there le... and the rest is all the experience tat u all hav to gain from every parade le... u can do it de... JIA YOU!!!

to CCU: wat i wanna say is on NPCC blog tag board le so juz go and read it...

AND AND AND the LAST LAST LAST REMINDER... not happy with mi juz come straight to mi... don tok behind mi and waste my time and in front of mi treat it as nth happen... UNDERSTAND... i wont die because of only short of one more cadet (NCO) to greet mi as SIR... One more time... don need... THANK for greeting mi tat the past few years but it time to end..

2008-03-29T16:50:00.001+08:00

argh... i sprain my ankle again... now very pain... getting swollen le... haiz... pain...

2008-03-16T20:33:00.003+08:00

Finally CL camp over... all the past few mths preparation for this CL camp finally came to an end in the 3 days... as a camp coor i felt tat i myself hav my own way of training my cadets... maybe i m not tough on my cadet but my way of teaching is to touch them and not to make them fear of mi... in the end i tink i did it... all of them did improve and i feel it a success... but of course not every camp end without any arguement... there are highs and lows in this camp... but mostly high... haha... now i wanna do a review on the 3 days camp...

day one - met in the morning with all CIs to set our standard and didnt really hav chance to say much because most of them are late... only said a few thing then mr ang came too... haha... after tat went to sch le... when outside the school found out tat time is running out... all the CIs are getting late... so i ran in to prepare... reach at 7.10... ok... 1st thing 1st the sec 3 did their initiative by falling in without CI asking them to... which is a good start... so start off with the admin thing after i said a few words and mr ang said a few words to announce the camp opening... then check their back then bunk in... bunk inspection... the cadets got some punishment from MS for some minor mistake in their bunk cleaning... then after tat ask them to change uniform... i apply another my own style... haha... didnt give them timing for changing... only ask them to be ready before all the CIs hu is changing.... and so... as expected... they did not fulfil it... we actually came out more than 15 min earlier than them... so ask them to change back to PT kit... then the girl change quite fast whereas ui did not see the guy... soi when all girls came down... i ask them to change back to uniform first... then boys came down and this is the one and only punishment tat i gave out in this camp... to the boys who even change back to PT kit oso so slow... so after tat ask them to change back to uniform... then drills started... it taken by ZH.... i did nth much for tat... juz walk ard and supervise... then after drills it lunch... all the CIs had loh mee... only i special hav laksa... haha... so after lunch it lecture by ML it about roles and responsiblity of CL... then after tat they had knot and lashing... and all their badge kanna confiscated... cos they do not noe all the 8 basic knots.. haha... then after tat it lecture on organizing a succesful campfire... after tat wash up then dinner time... ate halal food... haha... then after their dinner they had another lecture orienteering... and sth happen... they were rude to Serena.... haiz... was so disappointed with tat... as a camp coor not only i hav to protect my cadet but i oso hav to protect my CIs... so as they will having their sing along session... i had a small meeting with some of the CIs... and in the end decided tat i will tok to them personally with my 2 asst camp coor... as i do not hope any CI wil interfere.. bcos i can actually say tat the 3 of us is actually closer to the batch and i believe they will listen to mi when i tok to them nicely... ok... so actually this is my first real big decision tat i had to make... hope tat all the CIs wil not misunderstand... I really had my own ways.. thank for trusting mi... ya btw hav to thank alishia, mandy and nelson for coming back to help out on the sing along... the high gang... haha... then after their sinalong tok to them... i was really disappointed... and they will like all giving mi a sad look... because of sth i said... but of cos i cant reveal it here... only those hu is there will noe this... i promise... so they went of to their supper... then after tat i scrab off the debrief as it already very late... then after tat we had interview for them... i keep on running up and down to check on them and oso cal them down... was like exercising then nelson and mandy was like keep on laughing... haha... then after the interview which last ard 2 hrs... we had mac as supper it a treat from nelson haha... then we hav to finish eating it and oso wash up b4 1 cos sentry duty starting at 1... haha... then the first grp came down... then same as last year mandy walk with mi... haha... for all the grp... thank for keeping mi company... and oso ZH... during grp one... where jolene is in... when we were walking she actually shime the torch into the guard post i ask her not to shine... then she was like so scare after i say sth.... haha... face change... then 2nd grp... carmen hu scare snail... i step on one snail and she was like so scare for the whole sentry... juz care abt the ground.. haha... then grp 3 nth special happen... then after all 3 grp finish le... i was like damn tired... but stil hav to write 200 lines for using CH 8... haiz... it difficult to change u see. and as we actually punish the cadet for using CH 8 so all CI felt tat it only fair tat all of us oso write it.... cant rmb the last time i write lines... PRI sch...???? i tink... haha... then was like write til behind liao too tired... then write nonsense on some lines... haha... then finish le... went to sleep for ard 2 hrs... then woke up for day2...

Day two - PT taken by ZH... mi, jason, mandy and nelson was sitting on the stage i try to slp but jason disturb mi by pressing the ring alarm to the Walkie... idiot... when waken up... saw nelson sleeping again... haha... slp so long liao stil slp... haha... then ZH was stil giving PT all of them was like so not energetic... the timing tat nelson came out for them which is oso known among CIs but now let u all noe... your 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8 become SLEEP,2,3,4,5,6,7,8... haha by nelson... so after PT it breakfast... after breakfast Drill again... this time taken by Jason... then mi ZH amd MS was like so shay... went into councillor room to rest... haha... actually shld i say sleep... haha... and after drills they should hav tent pitching de... but i decided to scrab again bcos i drills stil got alot to learn so decided on tat.... so after Drills it lunch again... after lunch got orienteering prac... they went to CBP... so it the chance for mi to grab some slp... so mi and jason was slping there... slp for 1 hr plus... then when wake up heard tat mr wong took our slping pic... haha... so shock... argh... haha... so after lecture by mr wong on leadership... they played some games... i was not there as we were preparing for the campfire prac... so after the lecture... they had the campfire thing.... oh ya... during orienteering prac... sth sort of the same happen... rude again... so tok to them again... i tink this time round they really wake up liao... so after tat dinner time... then special program.... everyone was relaxed and oso high... went ard writing comment for every sec 3... and after finish writing for everyone... everyone came to write for mi... i got 6 plates... the most... haha... then after tat i write to all the CI and serena write to mi... haha... after tat is free time and supper time... then CIs was having a so called small sing along session... haha...then hav a small final debrief on the camp for all CIs... then debrief for cadet in parade ground for them to relax... ask them to refresh on wat happen for the past days... and tink wat they had done wrong which can be done right.... haha... then after tat... they went back to bunk to slp le... haha.... then mi and jason went to check... went up to the girls bunk... saw regina and jol scared mi they was studying and using torchlight... scared us... then they suddenly shout... cos they saw us... haha... then they say they saw sth oppsite... jason turn and oso say he saw sth... but when i turn i saw nth... they tink too much,... so ask them to go slp if not conficate their hand book... haha... then ard 2 went to bath then when we come out ard 220 le... went to ask ling zheng and peng sian come out... it a plan we set to see whether the rest of sec 3 notice any mate are missing anot.. so we kept the 2 of them under the stair... then 230 blow whistle for fire drill... haha... they came down then ask them go up again... cos they too slow le... til then they stil haven discover.... so 2nd time when they come down and they stil didnt discover til reporting... haha... then ask them to search ard... they search for more than 10 min but stil cant find... it was like so funny... keep on seeing them running past the place where we hide but they juz cant turn in and find... haha... in the end ask them fall back then bring the 2 out... then lecture them for a while then ask them go back slp le... then CI oso go do all their thing... then i went to slp for ard two hr again... then when i woke up at 5 was shock to see all CI aslp... haha... went to np room to wake ML up becos she was suppose to tak PT... when i cal her see her sit up le... so tot she wake up le lor... so i decided to go back and slp for a while more... when i wake up at 630 again was so shock to see no one was there... went to look for ML again... she was stil slping... so those hu noe shld noe wat happen next... haha... so to day 3...

Day three - breakfast time... CI got nth to eat... i tel the cadet at first they don get wat i mean but after 2nd reminder, they noe le... so they do the bread with peanut butter and jam for us... i got the biggest one... got 3 slices the rest only 1 slice... was so touched... haha... so after that test... then after test photo taking time... all was so high... so finish le photo taking as them to pack up their thing and clean the area... after tat ask them to go to AVA Room for final debrief and camp breaking... during tat i tok to them first then after that show them the video prepared by the CIs and after tat saw regina and jol eye wet wet de... teary teary de... haha... so after tat mr wong continue and give out the award best male camper- hong leong... best female camper- felicia... most improve camper- peng sian and last but not leat most knowledgable camper- carmen... haha... then after tat i annouce camp break and tat the end of the 1st CADET LEADER CAMP 2008..

here i now wan to thank the follwing ppl for making the camp so successful... the teacher officer, all the CIs and oso the NCO and sec 2 helper... thanks for ur help without u all this camp wil not be so successful.... thanks on behalf of CBSS NPCC...

Teacher Officer -Mrs Phua, Mr Wong, Mr Ang, Mr Chan, Ms Siti

Cadet inspector- Jason, Zhi Hui, Meng Lie, Serena, Meng Lie, Meng Siang

NCO, Sec 2 helper- Melvin, Ain, Siti, Chia Hao, Nurul Ain, Vera

Special Guest Instructor- ex-CI Nelson, ex-NCO Mandy and Alishia

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WISH all the sec 3 the best for their CL life... coming up in th next few mths... all the best... pls rmb... pls rmb wat u had learn and apply on ur cadet life for the time being... pls be reminded u all r stil cadets... not CL yet... until tat day when u all become CL hope tat u all will pass down wat u learn in the camp... best of luck....

and to the girls... i m not so old til i can be ur father....

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LILOO -
CHERYL, JOLENE, SAIFUL, TERENCE,LING ZHENG

HELO -
CARMEN, REGINA, FELICIA, XUAN RU, CHIN YANG

BURNOUT-
ASRI, HAKIM, HONG LEONG, PENG SIAN

u will forever be in my mind.... all the best...
haha... tired le not enough slp for this whole week... off to slp... niteznitez...

2008-03-11T22:54:00.003+08:00

getting more frustrated these days as CL CAMP get nearer and nearer...

last sat hoping to be a good man trying to tok someone into sense but she juz couldnt get it in... it alright... but wat did i deserve today... kanna scolding on her blog... even though my name isnt written there but... u shld noe... so everything ok... wil start from beginning starting as a stranger... nvm... and oso i hav nv intent to say sry to u at all... so no worries... was hoping that u can grow up... and now u r saying like who m i to say u to lecture... nvm ok... i admit i m in no position to say u... i m sry on this stance... i shld had nv ever said or nag u at all...

"And for that f...... who come n lecture me..all i have to say is.."ue are in no position to talk to me..ue dun have the rite..最没有资格跟我说话的就是你。。你不要在那边办好人。你自己也好不到哪里去。。我受够你了。。在多1000万个“对不起“也没有用。你是谁。凭什么教训我。。你只听到一边的故事就下定论。。这是什么道理。。你不要自以为是。。以为自己很好。。很厉害。。你比我们每个都来的差。。明白吗。。你根本没有资格。。你自己的行为都比我还要糟糕。又要批评人家。。不觉得惭愧吗？？你不要每次都叫人家反省。。自己却不这么做。。虚伪！！我讨厌你。。"

thank alot for reminding mi... i noe i m after all not good at all... nvm... til today then i noe.... u juz donno how i felt tat day when u walk away like this and when i saw u at hub with the others... u donno tat everytime when i say u how i felt... during training trying all my best to protect u silently... all this u do not noe oso... nvm... i m juz too stupid...

and oso i noe myself whether i did the wrong or correct thing i wil noie... donno u to say... whether i m bad or good is not ur business oso... I M WHO I M... if i really do wrong sth then i wil definitely admit la... come on.. but i don tink i m wrong this time lor... ok maybe i only heard one side story but... ok nvm i dot wanna explain anymore... since wat u hav said is giving mi no opportunity to explain at alll... so nvm... hope tat u will understand in the future...

camp is juz 2 days away and i will be the camp coor... and at this point of time tues 11 march 11.08pm i m tinking whether shld i back out from being the camp coor... m i qualified to teach them...? i m qualified to scold them...? after wat i read from the RED COLOURED word i m now tinking... that y i m saying thank to u for reminding... i stil do not noe wat to do... since u don understand mi at all... tat it... i hav got nth to say... and finally u said out wat u wanted to say... i noe u kept it for very long le... thank... so for all the past almost 11 mths i hav been an idiot to u... thank i noe everything le....

COMTEMPLATING...???

2008-03-05T00:04:00.002+08:00

haiz... was really frustrated this whole week all bcos of the ccu postpone becaus of rain... on sat we met early in the morning... i reach mac at 5am... then everyone started to come... then after tat head to hta...and it was raining haiz.. so it the end the comp is postponed... actually i was hoping tat the girls can compete on tat day bcos i can actually see their form on the last training which is on fri...

on fri at the start mr wong tok to the ccu team and everyone was like emo... then followed by saiful and amirul hu read out a letter prepared by the boy team dedicated to the girls to support them... then after tat back to normal training... as i say the girls was on hot form tat day... they can actually complete the thing within 10 mins if not for some delay but it alright... haha... it was a job well done.... so after 3 training.... everyone was back to emo mood again... cos i gave them a full debrief on the whole ccu thing... then after which mi and jason gave everyone the letter that both of us prepared... everyone was like so touched... i guess... haha... so we tot it was the lst training but no... haiz... due to... erm... u can read it in the 1st para... haha...

then come to a headache thing for mi to decide cos originally we tot tat the ccu com was postpone to this week 8 march... but on mon when we cis r having meeting for nco camp which is gng to be held on 13,14,15... but suddenly we received news tat it comp has been postpone to 15... we was shock... so we tink and tink... on which date shld we hold the camp... i was having headache til today when we met mr wong... we decided to stick back to the original date then on sat everyone involve in the camp will go for ccu comp to support the girls...

but juz... juz.... juz receive news tat it has once again been postpone to 22 march... it might be a good news... but schedule hav to be change again... and the girls hav to suffer for another week... hope tat this will be the last changes.... ya and not to forget ... thank the ccu team for the miniature basha,flagstaff and gadget... and oso ur lucky charm... haha... like wat mr wong say... i can really see all of ur improve and bonding... and oso ur mascot is with mi... with the care from mi... pls so not worry... and one more thing to tell u all... i hav got a new shirt for the mascot... will show u all tml... take care... all the best to ccu team...

WE'LL SPREAD OUR WINGS AND NEVER STOP GETTING BETTER

2008-02-03T12:30:00.000+08:00

Men... I m sorry.... i can only tel u tat i had regreted in making the decision... i noe u r angry with mi right now... so i wont tok much to u... and i wont contact at the moment... i m sorry...

2008-01-31T22:29:00.000+08:00

for the whole day today i m tinking whether should i carry on gng down to CBSS for all their NPCC training... i m tinking it hav been 3 years or more since i had become a CI le... i m wondering myself... m i actually fit to be a CI...? i can confidently tel u tat when i m a NCO i hav alot of confident in myself but since i become a CI...??? i don tink so... as wat zhi hui said to mi yesterday... don play with the cadets... i m alway tinking how i m suppose to let the cadet respect mi and not be scare of mi... i did it in not letting them scare of mi... but in respecting mi... i tink i m a total failure... i noe there are a few NCO who is not happy with mi... come on la.. if not happy juz come to mi directly la.. don go pass it around lor... AQUA ar... 16 years old this year liao stil hav small kid tinking... anyway don wanna tok abt this le...

the question of whethershould i carry on gng down for training stil hovering in my mind... haiz... certainly it a difficult decision for mi to make but i tink for the benefit for the cadet i hav to stop gng down and DISTURB them.... definitely came bear to leave them but... donno how to explain exactly oso... juz felt tat i m not fit to be a CI anymore le... time is up... and i m really old le..

sth for jason... abt the camp coor thing maybe i hav to disappoint u... i need to hav a clear mindto tink now... sry... tml fri parade again... might be gng down after work... but not confirm will be tinking abt it... tink i cant get to slp tonight le.. haiz...

and for the CCU team if u all happen to see this post which i hope u wont... i m not giving up on u all definitely i m juz giving up on myself... sometime i felt tat is not tat u all cant do it la... it only the matter whether u all wan to do it anot only... so don give up on yourself... if... i mean if... i really decided not to go for ur training i will stil be supporting u all my spirit will alay be there ok...??? CCU team jia you... with jason and zhihui sir with u all i believe and trust them tat they can bring u all to a new height... remember one thing no one will be able to give up u all unless u all give up urself... bear this in mind ar... lastly SORRY CCU team...

one more person i wanna say sry to is C*****K**... i tink i make a harsh decision la... but i don tink i will regret it... wish u all the best... take care...

2008-01-26T03:28:00.000+08:00

Men... i m sorry for wat i did... i noe u meant good for mi... but... i m sorry... i cant really face u now... wat can i do is juz say sorry...

2008-01-24T22:42:00.000+08:00

not in real good mood to blog so this will be a short one.... went to play pool after wrk juz now with ray and kel... there was one game which i was cleared by ramon... argh... so sad... but thankfully i manage to clear one over him oso... haha... first time... somemore he is the most pro among us... haha... so happy... after that went home le...

discovered sth on someone blog... haiz nvm i am not gng to let u all noe wat i saw... i will juz keep it to myself... everything to myself... was very disappointed... donno wat to do... did i step in the correct step??? i donno... i tink it wrong... shouldnt hav carried on there... i m sorry... feeling tat i m getting more and more b*****d... donno y juz having the feeling....

one last word for the one ********... if u stil cant give up one juz let mi noe don stop keep dragging le... u might be happy there with ppl treating u good... but the one who is suffering is the one who is keeping quiet here.... 长痛不如短痛... juz let mi noe if it is so... i really meant it this time... no matter wat happen my feel wil be the same... i promise....

林宥嘉 - 那首歌

不知道為了什麼
憂愁它圍繞著我我每天都在祈禱
快趕走愛的寂寞

妳要我聽這一首歌
用這首歌離開我
她唱得太美了
歌詞卻很傷人
妳為什麼不直接提分手

愛妳的話不需要重
輕輕的說我就懂
接妳的車來了
表示愛到站了
我站在十字路口
對抗心痛一個人

妳的黑髮
現在睡進誰的胸口
妳的唇
現在跟誰要溫柔
一開始妳愛我
最后妳放棄我
還要用千言萬語
說得委屈
妳有多難過

愛牢牢抓緊我
恨深深包圍我
妳要我為妳好
快趕走愛的寂寞

愛妳的話不需要重
輕輕的說我就懂
接妳的車來了
表示愛到站了
我站在十字路口
對抗心痛一個人

妳的黑髮
現在睡進誰的胸口
妳的唇
現在跟誰要溫柔
一開始妳愛我
最后妳放棄我
還要用千言萬語
說得委屈
妳有多難過

愛牢牢抓緊我
恨深深包圍我
妳要我為妳好
快趕走愛的寂寞

i love this song to the core... haiz... no one is ever gng to ask mi take care... only i ill say this to myself...

take care Yet Dun Hui 叶敦辉...

2008-01-23T01:41:00.000+08:00

YOYOYO... I m Back... haha... im sorry... close my blog for a period due to some moodyness and emoness... haha... but i am back i am gng to start afresh... everything from beginnig... was in quite good mood recently... "U" should noe y... hope it stay the same and there will be more improvement ok...? but i wont force u... ok... it quite late le... very tired liao... wil update more tml on my wat happen on my birthday... loads of ppl to thank.... nitez nitez everyone...

BLOG ALIVE AGAIN...

HOPE IT WONT GO DEAD AGAIN....

bb...

我还是神经病熊熊(sjbxx)吗？

2007-12-24T00:24:00.000+08:00

haiz... i hav been soft hearted again... haiz... here to post... she juz told mi alot of thing... haiz... donno how to advice her oso... noeing her feeling down... make mi feel the same way... haiz... felt tat i m so useless... hoping tat she wil leave him.... not bco i wanna be with her... bcos i don hope to see her suffer... but it impossible... nvm... i will juz wait.... ok end here le... the lyric below is solely for u...

听说爱情回来过的歌词

在朋友那儿听说
知心的你曾回来过
想请他替我向你问候
只为了怕见了说不出口
你对以往的感触还多不多
曾让我心碎的你我依然深爱着
在朋友那儿听说知心的你
曾找过我
我要他帮我对你隐瞒
只是怕见了面会更难过
我对以往的感触还那么多
曾给我幸福的你我依然深爱着

有一种想见不敢见的伤痛
有一种爱还埋藏在我心中
我只能把你放在我的心中
这一种想见不能见的伤痛
让我对你的思念越来越浓
我却只能把你
把你放在我心中

在朋友那儿听说知心的你
曾找过我
我要他帮我对你隐瞒
只是怕见了面会更难过
我对以往的感触还那么多
曾给我幸福的你我依然深爱着

有一种想见不敢见的伤痛
有一种爱还埋藏在我心中
我只能把你放在我的心中
这一种想见不能见的伤痛
让我对你的思念越来越浓
我却只能把你
把你放在我心中对你的声音

你的影
你的手我发誓说我没有忘记过
而关于你选择了现在的他
我只能说我有些难过
我也真心真意的等过

有一种想见不敢见的伤痛
有一种爱还埋藏在我心中
我只能把你放在我的心中
这一种想见不能见的伤痛
让我对你的思念越来越浓
我却只能把你
把你放在我心中

有一种想见不敢见的伤痛
有一种爱还埋藏在我心中
我只能把你放在我的心中

i m shenjingbingBEARBEAR... NITEZNITEZ..

2007-12-23T02:24:00.001+08:00

i wanna stop all posting le... wanna say sry to her... went to her blog see tat type of thing again... no mood le la... bb

2007-12-21T01:32:00.000+08:00

hihi... here to blog le.... juz came back from jalan kayu.... juz had prata with ppl from my temple... so long nv eat liao... then had a can of coke... haha... saliva dripping hor??? haha... before that went to tian ci gong for a small meeting... haha... tok with kong long ah peh... haha... he alway like to lixiao mi... haiz... donno y oso... haha....... tat alll for today... haha... bye bye...

erm... actually not ended cos someone requested for a 3000 words post... haiz... so from now i will try my best to make it 3000 words... and i hav to do it b4 2... time is running out for mi le.... haha... erm... donno wat to tok abt... so i tink i will to abt my schedule for the next fews days ba...

tml... i will be back to wrk again... working in panasonic is somehow quite relax... but maybe is due to bcos i hav been slping late everyday tat y almost everyday i m falling asleep at wrk haha... lucky supervisor nv see... haha.... so tml after wrk will be back home to get a small rest then after tat hav to head off to temple again for ban gong le... xianz... donno til wat time again... haiz.... so tat all for tml...

on sat.... i will be gng to HTA... the home team academy... to attend my ex-NCO CI passing out parade... I m invited... haha... will be very happy to see them pass out... haha... finally after all the lecturing on them they finally gng to pass out as CI le... haiz... wat this show??? it show tat i m old le... haiz... time fly... my days as CI almost over le... after 7 years of NPCC life i really learn alot of thing, seen different type of ppl.... finally grow up le... haha.... so hope tat i wont drop my tears when i see them pass out ba... it different to see mi drop it... haha...

then after tat see til wat time hav to go to the other tua... ah peh gng there zuo ke... so see how ba... xianz...

for sunday i will be spending my time with my ex-classmate... pei shan is having hse warming... will be meeting up with all of them... haha... hoping to see them real soon... so long nv meet up le... will be meeting at 1030 at amk mrt to buy her gift... then after tat go over to yishun ave 4... friend who is gng... and if see this post... pls be reminded of the time and venue where we are meeting ok...? if got any enquiries pls cal Pat... haha... don cal mi ar....

waa... die le... nth to write liao... how...? nvm... haha... i will tok abt my history... haha...

very long time nv play bball le... i was once a sch team basketballer... but let mi tel u... actually i play better bball after my sec sch life... donno y oso... haha... but my sec sch nv win... haiz... due to our team stamina... everyone was so sad and so down... haiz... don say le... xianz...525

next week christmas lor... will i receive any gift??? i donno... hope so ba...

erm... ok... i now wann say sth tat r gng to happen in january le... haha... my birthday is on jan 14 (monday)... so i will be inviting my friend and relative over to my hse on 13 jan (sunday) for buffet... not gng to open chalet.. cos not very free during tat period... my friend pls contact mi juz cos i scare i miss out on anyone... y m i doing this buffet... becos it wil be my 21st birthday.... haha... haiz... so old le... stil don hav gf... don laugh hor... haiz... but nvm... for the 21st year of my birthday i will be celebrating without a girlfriend... haiz... how long wil it last... i donno... but nvm... leave it to fate ba... haiz... i hope to ask her over it my wish but i noe it difficult most probably she wont come de... haiz... but nvm.... hope my wish wil come through ba... don say le... haiz...

really nth to write le... so sry caiber... don angry hor... haiz.... ok... so i will be ending off once again with lyrics... haha...

歌词: 勇气

终于作了这个决定
别人怎么说我不理
只要你也一样的肯定
我愿意天涯海角都随你去
我知道一切不容易
我的心一直温习说服自己
最怕你忽然说要放弃

爱真的需要勇气
来面对流言蜚语
只要你一个眼神肯定
我的爱就有意义

我们都需要勇气
去相信会在一起
人潮拥挤我能感觉
你放在我手心里
你的真心

如果我的坚强任性
会不小心伤害了
你你能不能温柔提醒
我虽然心太急
更害怕错过你

爱真的需要勇气
来面对流言蜚语
只要你一个眼神肯定
我的爱就有意义

我们都需要勇气
去相信会在一起
人潮拥挤我能感觉
你放在我手心里
你的真心

ok... hao... sry no 3000 words... only got 760 word... sorry to keep u waiting... really nth to write le... sry ar... Bye bye

我是神经病BEARBEAR。。。永远都是，好吗？

2007-12-20T03:52:00.000+08:00

blogging again... juz came back... very tired.... haiz... she hasnt forgiven mi yet.... i noe... haiz.... i m sorry... even though the consecutive days continue for 28 days le... but... i really donno when wil it end... i m really worried tat it will be ending very soon le... hope it wont happen... im sorry... i miss u...

歌曲：爱的主旋律

是你在那个雨季走进我生命
带着一点任性和温柔的表情

是你在那个雨季赶走了孤寂
温暖的笑容换我仅有的天地

天上一万颗星星
我却只看见你
要说这是幸运
还是不可思议

身边有太多风景
我却停在这里说我傻的可以还不是因为你

是你的声音
带给我勇气
恋爱的频率
直到我心底
如果你愿意
是的我愿意
来自我幸福的主旋律

从前都失意
现在我相信
天空会放晴
爱会更甜蜜
如果你愿意
是我的愿意
爱的主旋律
永远唱下去

是你在那个雨季赶走了孤寂
温暖的笑容换我仅有的天地

天上一万颗星星
我却只看见你
要说这是幸运
还是不可思议

身边有太多风景
我却停在这里说我傻的可以还不是因为你

是你的声音
带给我勇气
恋爱的频率
直到我心底
如果你愿意
是的我愿意
来自我幸福的主旋律

从前都失意
现在我相信
天空会放晴
爱会更甜蜜
如果你愿意
是我的愿意
爱的主旋律
永远唱下去

啦啦啦啦啦~~啦啦啦啦啦~~啦啦啦啦啦~~

如果你愿意
是的我愿意
来自我幸福的主旋律

从前都失意
现在我相信
天空会放晴
爱会更甜蜜
如果你愿意
是我的愿意
爱的主旋律
永远唱下去

天上一万颗星星
我却只看见你要说这是幸运
还是不可思议

身边有太多风景
我却停在这里说我傻的可以

还不是因为你

I wan to stay as 神经病BEARBEAR Forever can...???

2007-12-19T18:55:00.000+08:00

in a few min time i will be gng out le... so now blogging for her sake... i donno whethr she wil stil visit my blog but no matter wat i had decided to post it... whether she see it anot is another thing... ok... starting out with wrk today was damn tired... felt so slpy for the whole day.... haha... now come home le very energetic... haha...

later ah peh gng to ppl hse seng kang then gng to zuo ke at bukit batok... xianz... it wil be a long night... donno wat time then can reach home... lucky having holiday tml... but tml night hav to go tian ci gong meet kong long they all to discuss sth.... hope to see her there... but i tink it impossible ba... cos this time she really angry with mi le.... since the first day i started to contact her... we nv fail to contact each other for consecutive 27 days le... wil it end today??? i donno anyway there is stil hope cos there r stil 5 more hours to go b4 today end.... but the hope are slim... i noe.. cos she really angry le... hope tat she wil forgive mi.... (if u see this blog forgive mi can...?)

ok la... gng out liao... byebye...

歌曲：小乌龟（小菜尾）

la la la la la la
la la la la la la

这首歌要给一个人
歌声代替语言
深情只增不减
那一刻吻她的脸

地转天旋
爱的感觉比樱桃更甜
双眼放送闪电
能超越极限
让人忘了季节
爱成了经典
为他付出所有爱怨

要你永远是我的小菜尾
我爱你每一天

for how long more will i be the 神经病BEARBEAR??? i really donno... it might end very soon... maybe in ard less than 5 hours time ba...

2007-12-19T02:11:00.000+08:00

no mood to blog at all.. but.... haiz...

u noe tat i love u deeply and miss u deeply... but.... haiz... donno how to phrase it... nvm.... tink this type of thing hav to say from my mouth not through hand... ok....

歌曲：北极星的眼泪

像断了线

消失人海里面

我的眼终于失去你的脸

再等一会奢望流星会出现

愿如果真的实现

爱能不能永远明天

或许来不及变

但曾经走过的昨天越来越远

北极星的眼泪说不出的想念

原来我们活在两个世界

北极星的眼泪你哭红的双眼

被淋湿的诺言

淹没在心里面

我抬头看着爱不见

再等一会奢望流星会出现

愿如果真的实现

爱能不能永远

明天或许来不及变

但曾经走过的昨天越来越远

北极星的眼泪说不出的想念

原来我们活在两个世界

北极星的眼泪你哭红的双眼

被淋湿的诺言

淹没在心里面

我抬头看着爱不见

当对的人等不到对的时间

就在放放开手的瞬间

爱撕成两边

北极星的眼泪

说不出的想念

原来我们活在两个世界

北极星的眼泪你哭红的双眼

被淋湿的诺言

淹没在心里面

我抬头看着爱不见

整个宇宙都流眼泪

How long more will i be the 神经病BEARBEAR??? Idonno... seem like it ending quite soon....

2007-12-18T01:30:00.000+08:00

was actually slping le... but kanna woke up by her and she ask mi to come blog.. haha... donno wat to write oso... was slping at home the whole day after i had my medicine... then woke up ard 7 go hav dinner then come home le...

i told her tat i hope everything will remain normal... and i tink she properly agreed le ba... i donno... but hopefully it is so... haha.... stil coughing now... stil having running nose... cannot take it le... wanna go slp le... tml stil hav to wrk... nitez nitez everyone...

歌曲：安静

只剩下钢琴陪我谈了一天
睡着的大提琴安静的旧旧的
我想你已表现的非常明白
我懂我也知道你没有舍不得

你说你也会难过我不相信
牵着你陪着我也只是曾经
希望他是真的比我还要爱你
我才会逼自己离开

你要我说多难堪
我根本不想分开
为什么还要我用微笑来带过
我没有这种天份
包容你也接受他
不用担心的太多
我会一直好好过

你已经远远离开
我也会慢慢走开
为什么我连分开都迁就着你
我真的没有天份
安静的没这么快
我会学着放弃你
是因为我太爱你

我又变回来了，我是神经病BEARBEAR... haha... i m back... hope tat this will stay long...

2007-12-17T11:27:00.000+08:00

hi... juz came back from wrk... i finally collapse physically and mentally.... haiz... my illness is the worst i ever had since 4 years ago... and on mentally the treatment tat i receive is the worst for my whole life... it had nv been like this been... yesterday night my tear roll down for her again le.. haiz... it for the 2nd in 3 weeks tat i drop tears for her... haiz... i wpromise she will be the first and oso the last girl tat i wil drop tear for... she will be the one and only... tat it... no one else will be able to let mi suffer this...

送给那个特别的你："昨晚你说你知道我已经跌进了这个陷阱不想我在跌更深。这只是你所想的，跟本都没有问我怎么想。我现在就告诉你。不是我爬不上来，而是我跟本不想上来。你能不能别对我这么绝？我真的想有一个机会照顾你。我说过，虽然你还有他，不过当他把你搞哭的话或让你不开心的时候，我还是会把肩膀送给你让你靠，把耳朵送给你让你诉苦，把身体送给你让你打让你出气。这是永远不会改变的一件事，我答应你。我永远都会在你身边守护着你。请相信我。我爱你。"

歌曲：我爱的人

我知道故事不会太曲折
我总会遇见一个什么人
陪我过没有了她的人生
成家立业之类的等等

她做了她觉得对的选择
我只好祝福她真的对了
爱不到我最想要爱的人
谁还能要我怎样呢

我爱的人不是我的爱人
她心里每一寸
都属于另一个人
她真幸福
幸福得真残忍
让我又爱又恨她的爱怎么那么深

我爱的人她已有了爱人
从他们的眼神
说明了我不可能
每当听见
她或他说我们
就像听见爱情永恒的嘲笑声

她做了她觉得对的选择
我只好祝福她真的对了
爱不到我最想要爱的人
谁还能要我怎样呢

我爱的人不是我的爱人
她心里每一寸
都属于另一个人
她真幸福
幸福得真残忍
让我又爱又恨她的爱怎么那么深

我爱的人她已有了爱人
从他们的眼神
说明了我不可能
每当听见
她或他说我们
就像听见爱情永恒的嘲笑声

每当听见
她或他说我们
就像听见爱情永恒的嘲笑声

我还是那只一样的神精病BEARBEAR。我是乖乖BEARBEAR吗？我不知道。

2007-12-17T00:00:00.000+08:00

hi... here to blog again... nth much to say today... juz came back from yew keng... then after tat went for dinner with tian ci gong ppl.... then came home le... very tired today... somemore my sore throat and running nose getting worst le... haiz... tml stil hav to wrk... now got a bit fever liao le... haiz.... but now stil can slp... donno wat to do oso...haha...

this might be my final blog for sometime le... i tink i need time to cool down... juz found out sth... haiz...

i really do not noe wat she is tinking.... she was contacting mi the whole day.... and i really felt very happy... but juz now when i came online i saw her msn personal msg... and i noe i finally hav to stop dreaming for the time being liao le... but i will stil wait... cos i noe... watever i do wont change her tinking.... juz from reading her personal msg... it seem tat she is indirectly trying to say sth to mi... so... i tink i muz noe wat to do le... haiz... friend might say i m aqua... but wat to do... haiz... hav to calm down for the time being ba... i noe i promise her not to say this thing anymore... but i m very sry... i really cant do it... cos i really love u too much le... if u wan to get angry i cant blame u oso... but i m really very sorry... hope u wont blame mi.... u really gave mi a very happy time... thanks... i love u and miss u alway...

歌曲：新不了情

心若倦了泪也干了
这份深情难舍难了
曾经拥有天荒地老
已不见你暮暮与朝朝
这一份情永远难了
愿来生还能再度拥抱
爱一个人如何厮守到老
怎样面对一切我不知道

回忆过去痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来拨动我心跳
爱你怎么能了
今夜的你应该明了
缘难了情难了

i love this song to the core... by 杨宗维。HAHA

OK。。。我是神精病BEARBEAR，大便BEARBEAR，鸡蛋BEARBEAR，放屁BEARBEAR，尿尿BEARBEAR，坏蛋BEARBEAR，不乖BEARBEAR，臭鸡蛋BEARBEAR，不好BEARBEAR and 皮蛋BEARBEAR。哈哈！

juz wanna let u noe one more thing.... i m not not happy... ok... i m really very happy today... i really hope tat everyday can be like tat... but i believe this wil eventually end one day... so i wil treasure today alot... thank you caiber... love ya and miss ya alwayz... good nitez...

2007-12-16T03:46:00.001+08:00

alo... blogging... b4 i start everything... i wanna say sry to caiber.... so sry... don angry ok...? forgive mi can...? let mi noe if u forgive mi ya...?

ok... start out with last sunday... went for yew keng at marsiling... veryvery dulan it was raining the whole day... when we reach the destination to pray the rain stop when we r on the road travelling the rain started pouring down again... was like wth... the heaven is playing with us lor... so in the end... wat i expected to happen... become true...

on monday i was sick... was feeling hot and cold... awhile cold awhile hot... so went to see doctor.... then got mc for mon and tues.... haha... so can take a good rest le.... haha...

so on tues went to bugis with robin go shop ard and see girls... haha.... he was a real kaki to mi... we r really good buddy... share everything we each others... our unhappiness.... and i found out tat we actually share the same though... haha...

on wed... it a real bored day... very xianz.... after work then came home le... then do nth whole night.... damn xianz... so nth much happen on wed...

to thurs... same old routine went to work in the morning... then came home le... when i reach home was damn bored lor... then came online to chat with her... u noe hu u r... haha... chat for a very long time... she say she very tired... i was so heartache to noe tat she was so tired... donno y oso... juz natural reaction... haiz.... then ard 10 actually wanted to call ah yong and ask him sth... in the end he suggested to meet out... so i said sorry to her... put her aeroplane... really very sorry ok? so carry on with ah yong so he took cab to my hse here cos he was actually staying in punggol then we go down to yio chu kang there de roti prata shop... i ask ah bee along... then chitchat there til ard 12 then went home to sleep le....

on fri... same thing went to wrk go home after tat... rest awhile then go temple.... haiz... it was a damn xianz day lor... quarrel with tat old man... it not the first time liao lor... almost beat him up... i didnt noe tat there a actually a so coward MAN in the world... i m so hot... then in the end old man say sry to mi... so shiok... haha.... then everything went back to normal le....

sat go temple again... uncle go ppl hse do sth til now then came home... was so tired.... suddenly having flu... so xianz... the running nose is til on now... then she actually called mi to ask mi come blog... but i cant run away... so only manage to do it now.... sorry sorry ok? don angry hao ma...? when she call mi i ask her wat she was doing... she said she was hugging bearbear... i m so so happy... hope tat she wil forgive mi ba... don ask for anything more le... ok..? forgive mi pls....

tml i will be gng to yewkeng with ppl from tian ci gong at amk.... go there look after road.... it the slackest ever yewkeng i will be gng for ba... don hav this type of chance... haha.... hav to wake up at 12 later... xianz....

then at night wanna come back for the big match lor... haha... man united vs liverpool... all the way united... haha....

ok now is sth i wanna say to her.... ppl u all can see but don kpo ar....

这段话是要送给你的，你知道你是谁，不要否认喔。“不管你怎么对我，我都不会放弃的。你问过我，为什么好对你这好。我也把答案给你了，你应该明白吧。我只希望你可以给我一个机会好好的照顾你，好吗？现在我不会逼你，你不想做的事。我只是希望你不要再为他伤心，如果是我，我宁可是我伤心，我也不会让你伤心。明白吗？”希望你给我这个机会。

ok... don wan to say so much le... later my buddy will say i emo again... haha... i admit la... a bit emo lor... haha... but wat to do.. this is mi... cos i really love her too deeply liao... fall too deeply into the trap le... then somemore too fat... then cannot climb up liao... haha...ok la... wanna end le...

歌曲：记得

谁还记得是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话是我们以后的伤口
过了太久没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手说要一起走到最后

我们都忘了
这条路走了多久
心中是清楚的
有一天有一天都会停的
让时间说真话
虽然我也害怕
在天黑了以后

我们都不知道会不会有遗憾
谁还记得是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句是我们以后的伤口
过了太久没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手说要一起走到最后

我们都累了
却没办法往回走
两颗心都迷惑
怎么说怎么说都没有救
亲爱的为什么
也许你也不懂
两个相爱的人
等对方先说找分开的理由

谁还记得爱情开始变化的时候
我和你的眼中看见了不同的天空
走的太远终于走到分岔路的路口
是不是你和我要有两个相反的梦

谁还记得是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话是我们以后的伤口
过了太久没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手
说要一起走到最后

我和你手牵手
说要一起走到最后

ok... end le... caiber... forgive mi ok...?

我是神精病BEARBEAR, 王八蛋BEARBEAR，臭鸡蛋BEARBEAR，臭臭BEARBEAR。不要生气了好吗？原谅我好吗？拜拜

2007-12-15T04:40:00.000+08:00

Posting again... juz came back from temple... damn tired... actually wan go for lion dance later de... but too early le... surely cannot wakie... haiz... so not gng liao... wan go watch yew keng... but oso cannot wakie... so nvm...

today at wrk... during lunch... rush back to secondary sch... do nth... waste my time... haiz... donno wat to write le... very tired liao... wan go sleep le... byebye...

歌曲：背叛

雨不停落下来
花怎麽都不开
紧管我细心灌溉
你说不爱就不爱
我一个人欣赏悲哀

爱只剩下无奈
我一直不愿再去猜
钢琴上黑键之间
永远都夹着空白
缺了一块就不精采

紧紧相依的心如何say goodbye
你比我清楚还要我说明白
爱太深会让人疯狂的勇敢
我用背叛自己完成你的期盼

把手放开不问一句 say goodbye
当作最后一次对你的溺爱
冷冷清清淡淡今后都不管
只要你能愉快

心有一句感慨
我还能够跟谁对白
在你关上门之前
替我再回头看看
那些片段还在不在

紧紧相依的心如何say goodbye
你比我清楚还要我说明白
爱太深会让人疯狂的勇敢
我用背叛自己完成你的期盼

把手放开不问一句 say goodbye
当作最后一次对你的溺爱
冷冷清清淡淡今后都不管
只要你能愉快

紧紧相依的心如何say goodbye
你比我清楚还要我说明白
爱太深会让人疯狂的勇敢
我用背叛自己完成你的期盼

把手放开不问一句 say goodbye
当作最后一次对你的溺爱
冷冷清清淡淡今后都不管
只要你能愉快

我是神精病熊熊和乖乖熊熊。哈哈！I AM SHENJINGBING BEARBAER AND GUAIGUAI BEARBEAR... HAHA...

2007-12-14T00:45:00.000+08:00

alo... juz came back from yio chu kang rd to meet tian ci gong ah yong, shui lian gong ah bee and san zhe gong... haha... nth to do... so went to meet ah yong... then i ask ah bee along... then he ask san zhe gong along.... do nth there... they eat i nv eat... cos no appetite so don feel like eating lor.... then tok cock there... haha... then ah yong say he regretted giving mi her number... cos he say i morning, afternoon and night keep on tinking of her... haha... but i don mind seriouslly... haha... i enjoy tinking of her.... ok... nth to write le... gng to sleep soon....tml got wrk... then at night hav to go temple... it wil be a long day... sat go temple again... then sun gng to yew keng with ppl from tian ci gong... this will be my life for this week end... nth to blog le.... byebye...

歌曲：不能说的秘密

冷咖啡离开了杯垫
我忍住的情绪在很后面
拼命想挽回的从前
在我脸上依旧清晰可见

最美的不是下雨天
是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐
回忆的画面
在荡着秋千梦开始不甜

你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远
或许命运的签只让我们遇见
只让我们相恋这一季的秋天
飘落后才发现这幸福的碎片
要我怎么捡

最美的不是下雨天
是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐
回忆的画面
在荡着秋千梦开始不甜

你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远
或许命运的签只让我们遇见
只让我们相恋这一季的秋天
飘落后才发现这幸福的碎片
要我怎么捡

tat it... byebye...

我是神精病熊熊。I M SHENJINGBING BEARBEAR...

2007-12-13T19:32:00.000+08:00

alo... here to blog... been threaten by someone... haha.... no la... jking... haha.... juz came back from wrk... so tired... nth to do now... xianz... my parent coming back tonight le.... but.... haha....life is the same.... wrk go home sleep... wake go wrk again... it the same everyday...

hoping tat there will be someone sharing my life with mi... but i believe tat the day wil nv come... haiz... don say le la... being so emo this few days... haha.... mi been EMO???? it so unbelievable.... haha... ok... will end here le....

WAITING FOR SOMEONE TO CHANGE MY LIFE.... (one quater of life changed.... where is another three quater...? hoping for it to come soon... juz HOPING... MISSION IMPOSSIBLE...)

歌曲：我可以

寄没有地址的信
这样的情绪有种距离
你放着谁的歌曲
是怎样的心情
能不能说给我听
雨下的好安静
是不是你偷偷在哭泣
幸福真的不容易
在你的背景有我爱你

我可以陪你去看星星
不用再多说明
我就要和你在一起
我不想又再一次和你分离
我多么想每一次的美丽
是因为你

寄没有地址的信
这样的情绪有种距离
你放着谁的歌曲
是怎样的心情
能不能说给我听
雨下的好安静
是不是你偷偷在哭泣
幸福它真的不容易
在你的背景有我爱你

我可以陪你去看星星
不用再多说明
我就要和你在一起
我不想又再一次和你分离
我多么想每一次的美丽
是因为你

我可以陪你去看星星
不用再多说明
我就要和你在一起
我不想又再一次和你分离
我多么想每一次的美丽
是因为你

great song... muz listen ar... haha...byebye...

我是神精病熊熊。I AM SHENJINGBING BEARBEAR... haha... byebye...

2007-12-11T21:57:00.000+08:00

aloalo... back to blog le... today i was on mc.... due to my high fever yesterday... not fully recovered yet... and my neck started to ache... donno wat happen to my body... was like so weak for this few days... haiz... so today i had go nth to do so in the afternoon went to bugis with weiliang and robin... waited for robin for half an hour... was like... wat the... nvm...

when i was walking along bugis... i was like hoping to see her there bcos... she seem to be gng there quite frequently this few days.. so was hoping tat fate will let mi meet her... but well... u all noe... there wont be such conincidence for mi... haiz... so juz walk ard and slack ard... no mood at all... because when i called her... her phone was like kanna cut off... i was damn worried... donno wat happen to her... cant contact her at all... and i almost got bang down by a car in the carpark... as i wasnt concentrating when i was walking... was tinking abt sth.... shldnt post it here... haha... donno wat happen from tat one day onwards... whenever she didnt contact mi for tat whole day i will feel very uncomfortable... donno y is there this type of feeling... perhaps i really miss her too much le ba... haiz... but wat else can i do...? juz sit and wait for my chance ba... i cant possibly ask her to breakup with her bf... becos... i am simply juz a good gentleman... haha... my friends out there might feel like vomitting but don u all tink so... haha... i really miss her alot... and one more thing... i wan to let her noe... i stil don hav the courage to tok to her face to face... don even dare to see her eye to eye... face to face... haiz.. i m useless isnt it? or perhaps i m juz too shy.. haha... my friend might say tat i will shy one meh... but the fact is it is definitely true....

ok back to bugis... ard 7 we had got nth to do... so i came back straight home le... so xianz... robin was a spoilspot... he went to geylang to look for her girl... damn buay on lor... haha.... so reach home le... got nth to do at all.... and one more thing... i will be left all alone at home for this 3 days... cos all my family abandon mi in singapore... and all of them went to genting le... haiz... will be veryvery lonely for this 3 days le... boring....

another song here... maybe i am tinking too much... but i hope this is true...

歌曲：么相爱的人不能够在一起

每当我在夜里想起你的时候
不知道你在哪头
心里面有许多许多的爱与愁
不知是否是永远的伤口

当你扔下我一个人说走就走
其实我也知道你很难受
只是这个世界把你我分两头
割断情思与占有

想起你我相爱的时候
相见只能在电话里头
我真的好伤悲好难受
不知道什么时候才是尽头

为什么相爱的人不能够在一起
偏偏换成了回忆
我带着你的照片
找到海角天边
希望你会再出现

为什么相爱的人不能够在一起
偏偏换成了回忆
我就算忘记时间也忘记你
也忘不了我们有过的甜蜜

当你扔下我一个人说走就走
其实我也知道你很难受
只是这个世界把你我分两头
割断情思与占有

想起你我相爱的时候
相见只能在电话里头
我真的好伤悲好难受
不知道什么时候才是尽头

为什么相爱的人不能够在一起
偏偏换成了回忆
我带着你的照片
找到海角天边
希望你会再出现

为什么相爱的人不能够在一起
偏偏换成了回忆
我就算忘记时间也忘记你
也忘不了我们有过的甜蜜

为什么相爱的人不能够在一起
偏偏换成了回忆
我带着你的照片
找到海角天边
希望你会再出现

为什么相爱的人不能够在一起
偏偏换成了回忆
我就算忘记时间也忘记你
也忘不了我们有过的甜

can this be true... i donno.. does she hav feeling for mi...? i donno... does she like mi...? i donno.... does she love mi...? i donno too... i juz donno everything and donno wat she is thinking... i am juz too confuse right now... but anyway i will juz wait for her and wait for the day... i stil hav 34 days to achieve it... it seem to be getting more and more mission impossible le... but i will try my best.... bb everyone got nth to do le.... haiz...

and officially alway my ending sentence.... haha...

I am 神精病BEARBEAR....

haha... byebye everyone... niteznitez..

2007-12-09T23:07:00.000+08:00

alo... here to hav a real short post... juz wanna inform u all tat i m down to fever due to today yewkeng... sitting on lorry... rain come and go then the big sun come out and go back again then rain come again... so now i having fever le... haiz... 39 degree celsius... wanna go slp liao buay tahan already... byebye... good nitez...

2007-12-09T05:21:00.000+08:00

alo... got nth to do now... not sleeping le... now 5.20am le... got to wake up at 7 to go for yew keng at marsiling today... so due to scared tat i might not be able to wake up in time so not slping le... juz came back from 天慈宫，tok alot of nonsense there haha... was so funny... then drink beer... drink abit only... due to my gastric acting again... haiz... such a spoil spot my stupid gastric... saw her there but stil don dare to tok to her face to face... maybe due to her mummy over there ba... haiz... i m so useless... isnt it??? haha... but anyway... haha...

this is the song that i hav been listening for the past 2 days... i hav mastered it le... haha... i remember all the lyric and the tune le... haha... hope everyone like it too...

歌曲：彩虹
歌手：周杰伦

哪里有彩虹告诉我
能不能把我的愿望还给我
为什么天这么安静
所有云都跑到我这里

有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走

你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱

当作我最后才明白

有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走

你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

看不见你的笑
要我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳开始环绕环绕
没有理由我也能自己走掉

是我说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

ok... gng to end here le... and the last sentence i m gng to write is for her hor... not for other ppl... so u all don kpo ar... haha....

我是神精病熊熊，哈哈。byebye...

2007-12-06T18:27:00.000+08:00

juz came back from work... so fucking tired... woke up by someone at 5 am through a msg... haiz... and the worst is in the end nv reply back... haiz... so i was damn slpy now...

doesnt noe wat happen to her again... seem like she don feel like toking to mi... haiz i donno la... the only thing i noe is she seem to be getting better and better with her bf le... haiz... nvm... wat to do... how i noe all this...? through her blog... haiz... i hav been telling myself not to visit her blog anymore... but my hand r juz too itch... or maybe is my heart... i donno... haiz... i will try ba... don tok abt her le...

wanna go rest awhile cos maybe later gng to tian ci gong meet ah yong for dinner... or maybe supper... haha.. donno wat time he wan to meet oso... juz wait for his cal lor... ok... off i go... haiz...

Y FATE DON LET US MEET EARLIER.... HAIZ... MAYBE IT ALL FATED....

2007-12-05T03:34:00.000+08:00

aloalo... juz came back from k-session... don intent to blog de... but someone wanna see it... so i came to blog le lor... haha...

i m blogging for the sake of someone once again... haha... touching hor....

so this is wat u wish to see...

my nick name now is officially SHENGJINGBING BEARBEAR...

ok... my friend out there might not understand it... but it alright... juz call mi originally how u can... this nickname is only for the one and only "special" person to call... ok...? understand...?

ok leaving right now... i m tired le... hav to wake up at 7 for work and the time now is 3:37am... haha... byebye... C**B**... haha u noe who u r... byebye...

2007-12-04T15:15:00.000+08:00

ok... so i am i m stil alive... haha...

erm actually i m updating blog for the sake of a person hu told mi tat she got nth to do and feel like reading ppl blog... so i juz came to update for her.... (opps sorry duan this time not for u... haha..)

on sat night went for dinner at ji xian tua... i m late... then when the moment i reach there kanna tease by tian ci gong ppl again... haiz... Ah bee remember ar... u good.... haha... so after when to meet my sec sch peers... they were playing lan games once again... so kel and i went to play pool... becos waiting for them was like... argh.... so when they reach we went off to our usual hang out place... to toke cock once again... haha... alway toke and toke all those nonsense... haha... i was like emoing tat day very quiet... hahah... then we wne t off at around 3 then reach home then go orhorh liao... haha...

ok... this few days there are stil alot of twist and turn... because of her again.... donno wat she is tinking... hoping tat she will juz make the right decision and keep herself happy... promise mi not to be sad and disappointed again ok???

haha... so back to normal days don tok abt her le... haha... yesterday went to work... then not feeling well then went to see doctor and get mc... haha.. got mc for 2 days... and i m officially down with gastric problem haiz... for the past 3 days i only had a meal for each day... which is total up to 3 in 3 days... haha... maybe tat cos the problem...

so here i m today not gng to work... actually intended to go bugis de... but... haiz... kanna put aeroplane... haiz...

don say le la... gng to rot at home for the whole day liao... haiz...
off to drink my favourite coke le... byebye... haha... takecare... my friend out there...

歌曲：爱海滔滔
歌手：陈浩民
试着去努力鼓起勇气放弃你
总是不争气没有这么快学会安静
就连眼泪时刻在提醒根本无法放得下你
漆黑的夜晚还是找到了我排山倒海来袭
一定是我不够好
所以你才想要逃
逃到天涯和海角
躲在别人的怀抱
你能不能不管过得好不好
不要故意躲开不让我知道
只要你过得很好
什么都已不重要
我不会故意打扰
更不会让你烦恼
我每一夜不管你知不知道
傻傻流着眼泪默默的祈祷
希望你过得好
总有一天你会看到
爱如海掀起惊天巨滔
我会以无坚不摧的力量
让你知道
一定是我不够好
所以你才想要逃
逃到天涯和海角
躲在别人的怀抱
你能不能不管过得好不好
不要故意躲开不让我知道
只要你过得很好
什么都已不重要
我不会故意打扰
更不会让你烦恼
我每一夜不管你知不知道
傻傻流着眼泪默默的祈祷
希望你过得好

2007-11-30T18:32:00.000+08:00

i m dead on 29112007 time 20hr29min36sec... i do not noe how or y it happens... juz because of a word unconscious and everything can be push away... juz a simple sorry can stop my wound from hurting... i donno... watever she says i do not know which was true and which was faked... i ask for the truth... she didnt wan to say... juz reply mi a simple "u noe i don like to ans this type of question" so as usual wat i alway don is to say not to force u... nvm... i hav got nth much to say... i shouldnt hav went to ur blog... it was a trap and i fall into it directly and deeply... thought tat i wil hav surprise from u... and indeed it a real big SURPRISE... and since... tat it...

and once again i become an idiot again... my friend keep telling mi tat she is toying mi... but i don believe i juz don care... til now... i wont believe forever... don ever ask mi to give up again no way... u can don reply mi and u can don answer my call... but i juz don care... u say u don hope to hurt mi... but do u noe tat it even more hurting if u don even wan to contact mi...? a few day ago u said... we juz keep it as usual... tat day i didnt accept it but now i accepted le... and this happen... i really donno wat to do... i m totally confused by u... i fell into it... all i hope now is we will at least be able to contact each other but i believe it is not gng to happen at all...

i noe i shldnt fall for u... it not the right time... but i juz cant help it... nth more to say... juz hope u will understand and give mi a reply... I WONT GIVE UP...

街灯绊住我眼前下一步
拉长的影子嘲弄的回顾
电话亭仍留着你的话
一句话掉一滴泪
今晚的我会是如何入睡
原来最疼痛的表情竟是没有情绪
原来最残忍的画面可以甜言蜜语
我不懂得如何更爱
你影子讽刺地跟着我难分难离
原来最孤单的是我还是那么想你
原来最悲哀的是我不能面对自己
你收的干净
我也会不留一点痕迹
说故事也要像是真的
可是别触动那些回忆
今夜你说了最后一句
一句话掉一滴泪
看来今晚的我很难入睡
原来最疼痛的表情竟是没有情绪
原来最残忍的画面可以甜言蜜语
我不懂得如何更爱
你影子讽刺地跟着我难分难离
原来最孤单的是我还是那么想你
原来最悲哀的是我不能面对自己
你收的干净
我也会不留一点痕迹

i wanna change the last sentence:
可是我一定会留痕迹

before i end here is my 生死簿：

17112007：下午一点三十分 - 我跌进去了。
22112007：晚上九点零三分二十九秒 - 我认识了他，他给我的第一封简讯。
27112007：凌晨十二点五十八分十一秒 - 不能说的秘密
29112007：凌晨两点五十七分五十九秒 - 我复活了。
晚上八点二十九分三十六秒 - 叶敦辉死了。

in juz a short 12 days so many thing happen... it rather amazing.. i cant even believe it... to all my friend out there i m dead...

RIP YET DUN HUI 29112007

2007-11-29T19:42:00.000+08:00

alo back to blog lor... duan sry... i believe u hav been visiting my blog... haha... so here is wat happen recently...

last sat was our bball session again... didnt slp whole night then go play le... was like damn tired... then the sun was like damn big... i was like zombie... haha... then sth which i don which to happen... happened... haiz... i injured my leh all thank to yuan duan the wrestler... when i crossover then turn back because of his slow reaction... he shoot his leg out... and wat happen next i tink everyone should noe... haha... yes i fell and fell that tightness in my right thigh... haiz.. then felt painful in my left ankle... and i ended playing... luckily it recover quite fast... haha... the end of sat...

and yeah... FYP finally ended le... but here come IAP... IAP passed for 4 days le... was rather relax... i was attached to panasonic semiconductor asia pte ltd... i was in the department of ssd... it is to check and solve problem... i cant tel u much because it is highly confidential abt wat we r doing... haha... juz can tel u tat from mon to wed i was damn bored... nth for mi to do... keep on sleeping... haha... got caught by supervisor... xianz... haha... so today finally got thing to do le... at least i nv slp haha....

ok next.... knew a girl not too along ago... last week i tink... she was a good girl, cute, pretty and funny... haha... and tel u all sth.. i fell for her... donno y haiz... but she got bf le... sobz sobz... nvm i will wait... haha.... sometime the thing tat she said is making mi very confusing... haiz... donno wat she is tinking... haiz... I WANT TO READ HER MIND... haha... xianz... don wanna say much le... haiz... so sad....

will be back to post real soon... wil end here le... take care everyone...

2007-11-01T12:26:00.002+08:00

yeah nba season start again yesterday... haha... wil hav fun watching it again... all the high flying dunk, accurate shooting, beautiful assist, great defence and buzzer beater are all back to action... haha..

the two team i supported most ever since i noe wat is nba 1 in the eastern league... the cleveland cavavilier bcos of Lebron James and the other in the western league... the houston rocket bcos of T-Mac... haha... but in the offseason both team acted very differently while houston is busying upgrading their squad bringing back old time favourite steve francis and oso a PF from argentina Scola... this 2 players wil definitely improve the chance for the rocket to get back to winning the champion.. haha... with Yao ming, T-mac and Stevie Francis forming the 3 musketeer there shouldnt be any problem... juz look at the result yesterday... they won away to the Lakers even though Kobe score a great 45 points last night but watsoever houston stil won this wil be their season i m looking forward to...

but whereas the cav is not moving at all.. no upgrade and there might oso be downgrade... haiz... nth more to say the only reason for mi to support and watch them is only bcos of Lebron James... and they juz lost to the dallas mav... and James only got 10 point.. haiz... hope tat he wil go over to houston one day....

i m lcurrently in sch once again... hoping tat i can go home soon... cos very tired liao... tat it... wanna go eat snake liao... back to post soon...

2007-10-29T11:52:00.000+08:00

alo...

back to post liao... now currently in school... donno wat to do... cos very tired feel like slping so came to blog le...

starting out 1st... manchester united manage to score another 4 goals in a match once again... tat is 4 match in a row... haha... hope tat this wont stop... the young players r really great... nani, ronaldo, anderson, tevez and most of all my favourite wayne rooney... haha... wish them the best all the way and get all the cup tat they compete in....

now back to my life... this few days not enough sleep... xianz... very very tired but juz cant slp... sat meet up with kel, zd, duan, cch, ray and ms... was so boring lor... donno where to go... then some buay on... so very xianz... in the end went to our "L BOX" which is the playground under ray void deck... haha... i tink tat is our gathering place le... everytime when we got no place to go we wil go there and chill... haha.... went there sit awhile then went to the carpark to learn how to drive a bike.. haha... i manage to drive a distance haha... i m a fast learner isnt it duan...? haha... then ray pull out the shock of the day... as he was abt to fall he hold on to the bike by pulling full trottle tat shock all of us.. it was so loud haha... then we keep on tel him to relax... then after a few struggle.. he manage to drive oso... haha... then kel and zd went back home... then a sad thing happen duan lost his helmet someone took it away when we nv notice it.. he was like so sad... and due to this i hav got no choice but to give him my helmet then he drive home... while i wait for bus lor.. no choice ma.. no helmet cannot sit bike... it was abt 530am... so i waited for a bus to go home... i m not a TAXI KING hor.. i oso got take bus one... haha... then whole day nv slp... soso tired...

then on fri went back to np... finally manage to pass the present to carmen le.. haha.. hey i nv owe u anything le hor....

ok la... wana end here liao.. cos very tired.. eye closing liao... haiz... i tink i wil be taking a short nap in front of my computer liao... bb... wil be back to post soon... i hope...

2007-10-09T14:51:00.000+08:00

first post of oct...

i m in sch now... bloody tired... my brain is gng to burst liao... juz completed the powerpoint for my presentation tml.. then like crazy liao gng insane... this is the 6th week of the fyp le.. and i hav 6 more week to go b4 completing... which is 30 days... haha... then after tat wil be attachment for another 60 days then finally gng to say bb to all of u all for sometime le... cos saf wan mi liao... haha... don miss mi ar... haha...

now is 3 pm... already feel like sleeping liao... i stil hav got 3 more hours to go b4 i can go off...
tml got presentation at 11.45... hope everything can go smoothly ba... then at 4.45 got napfa test... sure fail one lor... donno like how long nv go running liao... my last best time is 10 min and 40 sec... i tink tml i cant even complete it in 21min 20 sec... haiz wat to do... all the best to mi... haha.... really hope can run in b4 12min... the best timing remind mi of last time when i am stil in sec school... haha... sec 1 walk for the whole 2.4 then when come back even teacher go back liao cos the bell go off le... and i m the last in my class... was like haiz... then when the record came out... my timing written in it is 23min 40 sec.. when i see it i was like so wat the big deal... PLS TAKE NOTE: i m in there basketball team since i m sec 1 and time i run... ermx... i shld say walk... who would hav believe i m playing bball... haha.. coming to sec 2 my running was stil suck to the core.. haha... but eventually inprove by ard 6 min cos this time nv walk ma... haha the timing then was 17 min sth... position 20 sth in my class... then coming to sec 3 when that stupid teacher take over he was like making us run almost every session cannot play games at all... juz keep on running.. haiz... but in the end because of this so called training... i came out with one of my best timing 12min 40sec... juz pass... haha.. so proud of myself... pass my running for the first time... haha... then my position in the class was like between 15 to 20 like tat...
then came the proudest day of my 2.4km running... it was during sec 4 when i came in 3rd in my class juz behind 2 of my class x-country runner... haha... maybe the other don wan run la.. tat y i came in 3rd... but 3rd is a 3rd i don care abt wat other factor there is... haha... yeah.. was so proud... my timing tat day was 10 min 40sec... best ever... very proud... even teacher cannot believe it... haha... can anyone of u who is reading this post believe it...? i doubt so.. haha... anyway it true.... haha...

ok la... wanna end here le... anyway to those who is reading this post... sorry to dig out the past thing... haha... cos really boring and nth to do right now... so juz bring this up and say... cos it is really an unforgetable day for mi in my life... muz believe mi hor... i nv bomb hor... haha....

ok la... back to my project le... tml presentation muz revise wat to present liao... wish myself best of luck... bb...

2007-09-18T04:42:00.000+08:00

i m so hurt to hear her crying... i m really getting more and more worried for her...

she cried today because of him again today.. i keep on consoling her but she juz wont listen to mi.... haiz.... really tink tat i m very useless cant help her at all... juz wanna let her noe there are stil alot of ppl ard her tat cares for her... but she said don wan... so sad... really hope she wil get over this and stil cheerful again... i m sorry i cant help u... haiz...

i hav a wish tat i hope angel wil help mi fulfil if she see this: tat is she can get over this and stay cheerful alway... if this wish really come true i don care watever happen to mi.. i m serious...

byebye...

MAY ANGEL BLESS MI

2007-09-06T01:52:00.000+08:00

stupid 桩

wtf... i kanna hit by the 桩 when carrying it... it hit it in my back... i m wont be gng to sch for this week le... gng to rest.. haiz... now is damn bloody pain that cos mi cannot sleep... but wat to do? haiz... gng to see doctor tml.. hope nth serious wil happen ba... the internal is very pain now.. anyway.. haiz...

but even if i m hurt, i m very happy... went to taka to watch lion dance com... haha... my troupe nam sieng is in the final with a high score of 9.38... highest... haha... hope tat sat final wil be a successful one then we wil be champ for the second consecutive year liao... but firstly well done for nam sieng... all the best... all the way... u can do it.. u wil hav all our support... we wil be behind u... good luck... muz make my injury worth it hor... haha... jia you

南仙好吗？好！
南仙好吗？好！
南仙好吗？好！
go 南仙，go 南仙 go，南仙，南仙，打不倒。（in hokkien pls... haha...) YEAH!!!

2007-08-21T23:15:00.001+08:00

no mood to study at all... so came to blog... 2 more paper to go le... hope can pass all ba...bb

2007-08-07T00:23:00.000+08:00

very very xianz... nth to do... juz came back from playing bball with duan kel zh and ray... felt tat only this few friends is really true to mi... my best buddy ever... ok?? promise...

today afternoon... called someone... tot she crying then tot wat happen... but hu noe... being a kind person alway kanna scolding... so i decided not to be so kind anymore... feeling so disappointed with tat person... cos when at night i call again and ask wat actually happen instead of saying nicely to mi.... haiz... she tok in attitude to mi... really very disappointed... so i hav decided not to care anymore... u should noe hu u r... haiz... not tat i m hard hearted but... u really donno how i feel... haiz... ok tat's it...

btw... i suddenly came to blog because there r someone hu keep on complaining tat whenever he came to view it, i nv update it... so i came to update today is partially because of him... duan pls feel touch... haha... gng off... bb...

2007-06-20T19:29:00.000+08:00

sobz... SAD SAD SAD... after 7 years of npcc commitment... my np life is coming to the end le... stil hav the memories of 7 years ago when i was juz a cadet without any rank and alway been takan by the CIs and NCOs til now i hav achieve my goal tat i hav nv expect myself to reach as a CI... it really a tough process but i really enjoy it and after all i felt tat actually i really enjoy it... for the past few months actually i hav already slack in np le... but during last fri and sat i went back for maybe my last camp in npcc as a CI... i reach in the afternoon ard 3 then i saw hong soon, adrain, zh and jason doing the fire ball for the campfire... so i went to give them a hand... the rest was outside the school playing amzing game in amk area... ard 430 when alishia and mandy saw mi... they wil like shouting... donno wat gone wrong lor... and they told mi tat they r juz abt to call mi when they see mi... cos actually i promise them i wil be there in the morning but in the morning i was not feeling well so decided to give myself more rest b4 i go over... then they when to help out with the campfire thing... they will soaking the firewood... alishia was like kbing all the way saying her hand got kerosene... haha... then i went to do sth... which i cant say here... haha... then soon the campfire arrive... i was with a few of my seniors meaning my ex CIs on the 4 level to light up the fireball and release it... it was very successful then we went down to join in the campfire... sing song... then til one moment... when the sec 3 actually cal ms out to tel them how they feel as ms is passing out oso... and they actually leave mi out... but nvm... i don care oso... i was tinking tat i m going to pass out quietly like this... suddenly my phone ring... so i walk a side to answer it... and i actually walk quite far... when i hang up the phone i saw mika and alishia was running toward mi... and they pulled mi to the middle... and told mi to sit down and they said sth really touching... even though i don quite remember it wat they actually said but i was really touch... as they stil rmb mi... they sang a song for mi... the same song they sang to nelson... haha.... i really hav to thank the NCOs for all this.... after the campfire when to chit chat with my seniors then the rest was having night walk... haha... then sentry duty came... my favourite for every camp... i didnt sleep the whole night as i brought all the group except one ard the school for check... all the NCOs was sleeping except mandy and loren... mandy went for all the round tat i hav walk oso and loren was sitting there doing his homework... then morning came... i was like so tired... then beginning to look for place to sleep... it was a great hunt... haha... wat i mean by tat i was hunting everywhere for a place to sleep... firstly i slept at the bench at the study area... then went to the study area and saw mandy and alishia there sleeping oso... so i went to the bball court...haha so happy no one was there... when there to lie down then suddenly the heaven don like mi... rain beginning to come down i was like... wat the hell... haiz... so went to the foyer there and sit down on the chair there and fell asleep oso... then very uncomfortable... then went back to the bball court as the rain has stopped... sleep for awhile then suddenly the big sun came out... haiz wake up[ again then went to the np room again found a space there aso slept there finally manage to sleep for quite long... then when i woke up the time for game... they played the team bonding game first which i m not too much involve... then came the water game... actually don wanna get wet de... all alishia fault then wet liao lor.... the last game for water game was like dodgeball... the NCO was so funny... haha.. then the came was abt to break le... went out of the school at abt 830... then went to mac with jason, amirah and shuwei to hav dinner there... tok abt np thing....then after that took cab with jason put him down first then i went home le.... very tired... so juz fall asleep... last but not least... i miss everyone in CBSS NPCC unit... and i really wanna thank the NCOs for the SPECIAL 'last min' SURPRISE... THANK YOU...

2007-02-06T02:06:00.000+08:00

sorry for not been updating for so long... cos i hav been sick for a couple of months... and u nv read wrongly it months...haiz... hav been suffering from different sickness... from normal cough to soar throat til now today having a very serious headache which is the worst of all... and as i m posting right now... my whole body beginning to few hot... i tink fever is coming to look for mi le ba... haiz anyway no one cares oso... so it alright ba... chinese new year coming le... will not be free on first day of new year liao til the 15th day... wanna noe y because of lion dance... but firstly i tink i wil hav to recover from my illness first ba... or i definitely wont hav the energy to do anything ba... but before chinese new year... i wil hav another challenge... which is my exam which wil start next week.... hope every paper i can go through successfully ba... tat all... no more energy to carry on le... head very very pain liao... wanna go sleep le... byebye....

2006-12-08T00:44:00.000+08:00

haiz... hav been sick for the past one month le... today is evening worst... donno wat happen... went to see doctor... doctor say if this time eat medicine oso no use... then muz go for x ray le... haiz... hope everything goes well for mi... common test coming next week le.... got 2 papers on monday so stress haiz... ok... hav to go rest le... byebye...

2006-11-25T05:05:00.000+08:00

oh my god... juz realize tat it hav been almost two months and 3 days since i blogged... for the past 2 months got quite alot of thing happen... do not noe wat to say oso... only can describe tat for the past 2 month, there is happy and disappointed moment for mi...

for those happy moment is tat i hav been meeting up my best friend every once a week it was so fun... we really enjoy the moment... haha... great moment...
and for my basketball... i hav a strong feeling tat i hav already been improving... got the confident back le... haha... so happy... hope tat i can stil keep improving...

now to the disappointed moment... one of my best friend really disappoint mi alot... and i believe not only mi... and some of the other friend oso... haiz... maybe the other may not tink of the way tat i tink... but different ppl hav different tinking... actually i really cant bear to treat a friend like this... but from wat i tink... the thing tat he/she does is unbearable... but anyway... after much comtemplation i decided not to care anymore as i tink i dont hav the right to care abt others affair... so from now on his/her problem is not my problem anymore... i don wanna waste my breathe and time anymore....haha... it the end...

til today.... i went for my lion dance training... actually tml gng to malaysia for competition de... but passport expire liao... so cannot go... sobz sobz... but nvm... i wil try my best to learn the instrument so tat i can hav a chance to take part in next year taka freestyle comp... haha... it wil be my dream... hope it wil come true...

end but not least... i wish those who is gng for the comp all the best... muz bring back medal hor... muz do us proud... go nam sieng...

ok... gng to end le... tink it wil be a long time again b4 i blog ba... for the past month really no mood to blog... sorry everyone for lettin u all wait.... haha...

live as Nam Sieng
die as Nam Sieng

2006-09-22T08:21:00.000+08:00

haiz...

hasnt been able to slp in the night for the past weeks... donno wat happen... haiz.... right now... i haven sleep yet... and i don feel tired at all... really donno wat happen... tink my health got alot of problem le... my kneecap... cannot sleep... haiz... donno stil got wat problem... hope can solvr it ba... cos sch is starting soon le... haiz...

nxt few weeks i probably wont be free le... cos gng to help my friend out with god celebration liao... tink wil enjoy it again.. haha...

k... ending here le... cos i wanna try to get some sleep liao... byebye..

2006-09-10T00:57:00.000+08:00

yoyoyo....

so happy today tat i m willing to post le... hahaha... my lion dance troupe won the 12th nee ann city liondance freestyle competition... hahaha... everyone was like so high after their performance.... we wil like shouting like hell... got so many supporter... hahaha....

well done guy.... hahaha.... u r my champions forever....

live as Nam Sieng
die as Nam Sieng

hahaha....

go Nam Sieng go Nam Sieng go
Nam sieng
Nam sieng
pa buay dou....

hahaha....

2006-08-29T01:13:00.000+08:00

BYEBYE Nelson....

really hav to thank him alot for teaching mi so much during my whole np life... he taught mi when i m sec2 as an nco.... when i m sec 4 he teach mi as a CI.... when i m a CI he teach mi as a mentor.... but he is going off next tues for NS le... wil miss him alot... but life wil stil hav to go on...

he keep on reminding mi tat the unit need mi now le... and i noe i should be responsible le... ever since i m a CI i hav been very slack it not like when i m a NCO when i m so enthu.... tink i hav disappoint him and meng lie ba... as meng lie oso told mi b4 she like the way i handle stuff when i m a NCO... but i m different when i came back as a CI... i noe it myself too... but after wat they told mi i hav decide to go back to the same way tat i hav been doing my stuff... i hav promised him le... and i promise i wont let him down...

feeling the pressure is now all on mi le.... i m going to become the 'lao jiao'... everyone wil come and look for mi when there is problem... i hope i can handle it ba... it really giving mi pressure le... haiz... but i promise i wil do my best and i wont let the unit down and most importantly i cant let myself down too... thank alot nelson and menglie....

ATC coming le... our unit are the camp coordinator... so we hav to plan everything... hope it wil go well ba... this is another pressure again... cos it the 1st time i m gng to involve in planning such a big event... it a whole area event with over 200 cadets ba... haiz... hope it wil be successful ba...

now to my basketball stuff again... another BIG BIG PRESSURE even bigger than the NP thing... haiz... my kneecap got big problems... all my friends asking mi to see doctor... but i don wan... i noe tat the doc wil ask mi to go for operation which by then i hav to rest for a few months which i don hope to do so... cos there is a competition coming in October le.... i don wanna miss it... really... haiz... donno wat to do... should i see a doc or carry on hurting my poor kneecap...? haiz...

now everything in my mind are all PRESSURE, PRESSURE and PRESSURE.... haiz... juz cant put it down... donno how to settle oso... haiz... my friends hav been supporting mi... but i m juz letting them now... all i can do is to say sorry to my friend... u noe hu u r... i don wanna say hu u r... u should noe ar... thank alot.... but sorry to u... haiz...

tink i wil juz carry on with my basketball life ba... haiz... my kneecap is hurting mi again now... haiz... so pain... hope it wil be ok ba... haiz...

the only good thing tat i m happy now is tat it SCHOOL HOLIDAYS... so happy....

ok la... hav to go le... muz sleep liao... BYEBYE...

signing off : peedan :>

2006-08-15T23:42:00.000+08:00

haiz.... hav been very sad this few days.... bcos of my basketball.... juz donno y.... cant find back the old way which i hav been playing... trying to adapt it to go back to my own agression of the past ba..... tink i hav been very slack while playing.... maybe tat y i m playing more lousy ba... i tink all my friends noe how well i play last time... haiz but now.... juz cant do anything.... today went to cbss to bring cadets to change their uniform at HTA.... waa... it so big compared to the old PA.... cant find our way at 1st... but finally found it le... haha... after tat went back to cbss then go for dinner at mac with nelson, ZH and jason... after tat went to 438 for bball training... as usual... still play very lousily haiz.... try my best to get back.... after training le... very tired... went home immediately... then now blogging le lor... haha.... scare later got ppl complain tat i nv update again... haha... don complain ar.... tml hav to wake up early go lion dance at nam sieng... so long nv go liao... haha.... tink tml wil be the last day tat i can slack le.... next week exam coming le.... muz pass liao... cant play play liao.... ok.... tired le... wanna go sleep liao... but actually stil cant sleep la.... i wil end here le... byebye...

2006-08-08T00:14:00.000+08:00

okok... sorry to everyone... particularly to BLOSSOM and BUBBLES for not updating the blog for past few weeks.... sorry everyone... it has been 18 days since i last updated le and now i wil start the week in review as i promise.... b4 tat... sorry for the delay... haha...

monday july 31st --- nth in particular indeed... juz slack ard... haha... actually forgotten wat i did tat day le la... haha... sorry...

tuesday aug 1st --- start of new month le.... and this should be the new start for mi oso... cos i finally got back to basketball training with my former team le... wanna to hav sth to keep mi occupy and so tat i wont be tinking too much... and the thing tat hav happen had cos mi to get so low morale and my confident are totally gone... so i hav decided to go back to sth tat are able to let mi regain my confident.... hope tat it can come back ba... but for morale... i do not noe wat can i do to get it back... haiz.... ok... let go back to the training... actually it not really train la.... it like juz playing 5 on 5 against each other as the elder team are having competition the next day.... so the coach decided not to tire them out.... finish playing liao go mama shop sit... the coach ask mi whether wan to play on the chong pang cup anot.... i nv give him any ans... cos i donno then he nv ask le... after tat then go home... cos very tired when reach home stay online til 4 then manage to go and sleep... donno y... so tat is the end of my day le....

wednesday aug 2nd --- did nth much for today only went to amkcc to see our team play against xiongxing... and they lost... so sad... hope they wil do better next time ba... btw saw her at cb mac b4 tat.... donno y... juz feel like avoiding her.... i hav to do it.... and i believe i can do it de...

thursday aug 3rd --- went to npcc training in the afternoon... normally it on friday but donno y it hav been push forward earlier on thursday... tink friday school got the wat special walk thing ba... donno oso... juz go lor... saw her oso nv tok to her at all... i tink.... tink i should be able to do it le ba... hope so... and there is one funny thing i m stil trying to find out... the sec 1 squad keep laughing when i stand in front of them and i didnt even tok to them donno y... juz hope tat they wil stop laughing... ok pls.... if anyone from sec 1 squad manage to see this.... pls pass it ard... haha... after the training when to mac to hav dinner with some of the ncos... after tat as i was late le... i rush over to 438 for my training.... when reach there all my teammates are sitting down listening to the coach toking to us.... one thing tat i m happy and glad is tat the coach trusted mi so much... from the way he say thing abt mi... and oso this is the 3rd time tat i accepted mi to go back to his team very thankful to him as some of my friends noe... i went in and out of the team for 2 consecutive years after the youth cup... tot tat he wont accept mi this time le but who noe... haha... he said he like mi to play in his team upon hearing this i m so happy... haha... i hav promise him i wil try my best to train well... and get back to the standard of how i play last time... hope i can do it ba... i believe i can.... one funny thing is tat i m very happy tat i m under weikang and chanhorng.... they are our so called captain... and the coach say they wil get double punishment of ours if any of the members do sth wrong... i giggle at the side and the coach saw it... he ask mi not to laugh and he told mi tat i will be joining their ranks soon... haha... i ask him y and i said i don wan... cos i don wan to get double punishment... haiz... but i tink this wont change ba... he nv tel mi y... but i knew the reason actually... bcos among us i m the only one who followed him longer than the rest of the small squad if nv cut out the time tat i went out of the team ba... but i keep on telling him don wan... but his no... haiz... hav to listen to fate liao... ok after the toking... we start playing bball and he said he wanna let us relax for the one last time.... on next tues the real training wil start... tink i wil be able to take it ba... haha... after finish playing when to meet ys they all after their movies... earlier they actually ask mi to go along but due to my training i cant go... so pai seh... so no choice promise them to meet them after tat... when we met we sat at the coffeeshop and chit chat for a while.... til ard 1230 i tink.... after tat i did sth very stupid... i walk home from bishan... i hav got money but juz don wanna take a cab... haha... so i walk all alone.... from bishan to amk to hougang then finally reach sengkang my house.... it was abt 2 sth when i reach home... so tiring.... then i went to sleep immediately after my shower... haha...

friday aug 4th, saturday aug 5th --- hmm... went to meet kel they all for dinner then after tat they decided to go my hse to play ps2... play til ard 7 sth in the morning on sat then they all went to sleep... i didnt sleep bcos hav to wake kel they all up by 11 cos kel hav to go work le... finally it 11... woke them up and they went off le... then i went to sleep le... sleep til ard 6 plus in the evening... then went to CP meet ZD then we went to play bball with wei kang they all... after tat which is ard 10 we went back to amk then meet kel, cch and ray they all... eat supper liao.... we went to play bball in the midnight again... haha... we played til ard 3am then i went home... same thing went online then slept in the morning ard 7...

sunday aug 6th --- woke up at ard 1pm then saw cch msg to ask mi to meet him at 130pm in amk as we r going to queenways to get our new shoes... shock... faster get up then get prepare then go out le... with my dad fetching mi there i manage to reach amk mrt station at ard 140pm... no one was there.. as i see the msg again i called him i hav got it wrong... he ask mi to meet him at him hse there but i misinterpret and went to the wrong place... as he told mi he wil take sometime to come down... so i walk over to his hse from mrt station... haha... so in the end... i waited for ard 1 hour... idiot... then went over to hougang to meet weikang they all... i scolded cch... he should hav juz ask mi to meet them at hougang then i wil not hav to rush from SK to AMK... from AMK to HG... idiot waste my time... haha... ok....met them le... took 153 to queenways... on the way when we r on the bus.... the group of us keep on teasing other passanger.... but it was fun... finally reach queenways at ard 4.... walk ard saw the shoe we wanted to get... but we decided to walk a few more round b4 we buy it... as we stil did not decide where to buy it... so we went to hav mac for dinner... after we finish eating... we went to buy the shoe... there was 1 shop tat we went... the salesman was so rude... i hav been scolded by him for dropping the shoe... but the fact is i did not.... it my friend hu did it... idiot... nvm anyway we manage to get the shoe... 4 of us bought it... we r going to be a team... haha... after tat went to met kel they at east coast took a cab... reach there le... go hawker sit down and chill... after awhile.... went to the beach there and they sat at the bench there... and i alone went to the seaside and sat there alone to listen to song... enjoying the wind... tink of her out of the sudden... haiz... ok let not say abt this again... haiz... at ard 11pm we went to took a cab to go home... in the end kel and duan went to my home and play again then they all went to sleep at ard 5am.... i stay up til ard 6 then i went to slp....

and finally it monday again... for the whole week i can say tat today is the longest hours tat i am able to slp... woke up at 2 sth... slack ard watch tv with duan and kel was stil slping... and finally he woke up at 330pm... watch holland v til 6 sth then we went to amk to meet raymond they all for dinner... at 8 sth went to 438 to play relaxing bball... but i now regretted my decision.... injured my left knee cap again while playing bball.... luckily it only get swollen cos at the 1st moment when i felt down i got the feeling tat my kneecap gave way... i tot sth bad is gng to happen... luckily nth happen or i might end up in hospital now rather than blogging here... haiz... but it very painful now...

ok everyone... and this is the week in review tat i promise... happy le ma...? BLOSSOM and BUBBLES... haha... do give comment on it... haha.... tml stil hav to go for bball training despite my injury... haiz.... donno can take it anot... haiz... hope it wil recover in time ba... haiz... juz donno how to take care of myself.... this few weeks it either sick or injury... haiz... hope my body wil get better with mi back to training again... haha...

hav been having the urge to contact her... but no... i tel this myself... i hav to control.... but i wont last long le... cos i breaking down le... i miss her alot... donnno how she feel... haiz... hope she feel the same oso... haiz... ok... finish le... i stil not sleepy yet... i tink i gng to play my FM le... winning loads of trophies... haha... btw the world cup analysis part 2 i wont be able to finish it le... no mood... sorry everyone... anyway EPL starting in ard 2 yo 3 weeks time le... it wil be exciting...haha... manchester united... all the way... haha.... juz try ur best to kill off chelsea.... haha...money cant buy trophy.... bleah... haha...

my friends out there... PS, YD, RAYMOND, KEL, CCH, BLOSSOM, BUTTERCUP and BUBBLES thank for all ur support... if without u all i tink i wil stil be very low... thank alot... love u all loads....

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2006-07-21T03:04:00.000+08:00

haiz...

actually no mood to post de... but anyway.... haiz.... mi really very low morale this few days... but thank to my friends..... THANK ar....

mi don wanna tok abt this anymore le.... juz wanna put a stop to it le....

but i noe it difficult.... i promise to my friends out there i wil try... especially to BUBBLES... i promise i wil try my best ok... but don put too much hope on it ok.... cos i trust myself tat i wil definitely not remember and give up on it de... haiz... sorry to disappoint u ar... BUBBLES... sorry... but i tried le... or probably i don even wanna try ba.... cos as kel, bubbles... and my friend out there noe my style.... i m faithful... haha... m i rite...?

haven been slping well bcos of this thing... donno y.... haiz... have been tinking abt it... even when i m eating, drinking, in class juz cant keep focus (scolded by lecturer today for not concentrating...) haiz... lying on bed trying to sleep i will oso tink de... haiz.... juz cant stop tinking... haiz... i noe my friends is trying to help mi... but sorry to disappoint u all...

ok... it 3 sth le... hav to try to go sleep le... tink i will be tinking for a long time again b4 i can fall asleep le ba.... anyway hav to try oso.... cos tml got lesson at 9.... til 1... then after tat going to cbss for parade again... tired... ok la... byebye...

2006-07-19T13:11:00.000+08:00

tired and sad...

yesterday was actually a happy day.... and i tink i hav been execising the whole day... walking here and there.... while waiting for raymond... i went to grassroot club to play bowling alone.... haiz.... lowest score was 63 which i hav no mood to play and the highest score was only 132.... donno wat i m playing... haiz...

then after tat when i meet raymond le... mi and him walk from sch to amk central.... so tiring... waiting for kel to come to hav dinner together... wait til so long... from 730 we waited til 9.... haiz....

then after we hav dinner... we went to meet cch at 438... he was having training... so we waited for him then acc him go eat his dinner again... then after tat kel came out with a great idea.... the time then was abt 1030... he said y not we go and play basketball... as we haven played for a long time le.... so since we hav nth to do so everyone agreed....

so we went to cbp... at the beginning we play 2 on 2... then after ZD reach it was 3 on 2.... then bcos of my mouth... i told them y not we play 4 on1.... haha... guess wat.... i m the 1 who is alone.... so tiring.... haha... but so happy... against 4 i stil manage to score 2 point... haha... then after tat everyone was so tired... the time was abt 1 ba.... we went to 7-11 to get drink.... then after tat everyone go back home respectively...

when i reach home it abt 130... i was like so happy.... my morale was high.... until when i tok to someone... and the someone brought down my morale.... i was like so.... donno how to explain oso.... haiz... anyway don wanna say it anymore le... so after tat ard 4 i wanna go to bed le.... but juz cant... i kept tinking of the thing tat the someone told mi.... haiz... stil donno wat should i do... haiz... anyway... nvm la...

btw i got a tinking of going back to basketball training but got no confident on it le... can anyone give mi some opinion.... i wil appreciate it de... thank alot...

ok hav to go now... meet my friend at CP to donno make wat report... ok bye everyone...

2006-07-15T02:00:00.000+08:00

HAIZ...

juz tok to her online.... feel sad for her.... tink i really misunderstood her le ba... sorry tat i gave u pressure for the last few weeks... i wont do it to her again le... this is a promise... sorry abt it... but hope u wil remember no matter wat happen i wil stil stay by your side and be ready 24/7 to listen to u and try to help u solve it de.... btw if her friends happen to see this post... i hope tat u all wont give her anymore pressure.... cos tink she really broke down le ba... she is not the her tat i knew all along... whenever i see her sad i really very sad oso.... hope to see u stay cheerful alway ok...? only when u r happy then i wil get happy de... donno y oso...

and my friends pls don ask mi who is the her.... for those who noe who is the her pls don give her any pressure by askin this and tat ok...? pls....

i wil really appreciate it.... thank alot... my friend....

now 2 le... i going to meet kel liao.... hav to go off le... bye...

lastly for her.... hope tat she wil be able to get to this obstacle... stay cheerful alway ok...? take care...

2006-07-13T23:20:00.000+08:00

Haiz... haven been very happy this few weeks... cos nv really heard from her anything... and oso saw from her blog tat she has got some problem... wanna help her... but she nv contact mi... so don wanna force her le... she is making mi worry abt her... she juz doesnt noe how much i care for her actually... or maybe i nv show it to her... so maybe she donno ba... anyway.... if she wanna say then say lor... if don wan then nvm lor... cant do anything oso... haiz...tml wil see her le... donno should be happy or sad... donno y like tat tink... hope i wil be happy ba... hope she wil take good care of herself... don make mi worry anymore... but if u got any problem muz come to mi ok...? cos u r not keep your promise at all... tat make mi very sad... haiz... anyway i really wan go slp le... tml hav to wake up at 8 for my maths lecture which is important... need tips from lecturer le...

hope tat she wil stay happy and cheerful alway.... if she is happy then i wil be happy le....

to all the guy out there treasure the relationship tat u hav out there... do not start treasuring it only when u had lost it... hope u all understand...

byebye everyone... hope tat everyone wil hav a good life not like mi who hav been suffering... haiz...bye...

2006-07-13T22:02:00.000+08:00

WORLD CUP ANALYSIS PART 1 (ASIA, AFRICA AND NORTH AMERICA)

ok.. the world cup is finally over le.... haha... out of the 64 matches tat are played.... i tink i miss only 2 group stages match... round of 16 nv miss... miss 1 quaterfinal (FRAvsBRA).... semifinal nv miss... and the last two matches i oso got watch....

this was a great world cup... from my point of view... this one is better than the last one ba.... haiz... the team tat i supported went out in the quater... haiz... my fav player kanna sent off too... sad for them... actually don wanna watch WC after tat le... but after brazil went out... haha... i decided to carry on watching it... cos all the final 4 teams r good and they r oso quite balance among themselves and all hav chances to win it so i decided to watch it... anyway now i wil tok abt how all the 5 continents fare ba...

firstly... Asia... wat the hell are they(Japan, south Korea, Saudi Arabia, Iran) doing none of them went past the group stages.... quite sad la.... cos i m oso from asia ma... haiz... the best team for asia i tink is South Korea ba... they actually hav the best chance to get through... but haiz... lost to switzerland... but they did well against the runners-up France.... the came back against angola... so well done for south korea only... the rest of the team... haiz... one word to describe them... S***S... but 1 thing to compliment abt saudi arabia is tat in their first match... they r juz seconds away from winning it... but they conceded a last min equaliser to tunisia... so sad... againt spain did well in the 1st half but gave way in the 2nd half... against Ukraine it totally ugly... tat it... Btw hope tat Singapore wil achieve their goal which is to get into the WC in 2010 ba.... hopefully... haha....

Now to North America which consist USA, Mexico and Costa Rica... Costa Rica loses all their matches... so nth to say abt them.... USA got their chance... but juz too bad tat they r in a difficult group...they drew with eventual winner ITALY... but a poor match against Czech and an evenly match against Ghana tat cos them to lost both games tat end their hope.... so 2 out 3 did not get past the group stages... Mexico did well against portugal in the group stage but lose.... drew against Angola and won against Iran tat help them to go through... and they face one of the favourites Argentina... They were eliminated which i tink they don deserve the result.... Argentina played poorly but it juz tat one touch from Maxi Rodrigue tat help them won it in extra time... so... it sad for mexico but i tink they wil make a come back in africa... for USA... most of their are geting old le... so donno wat wil they produce in 2010... so good luck to all the north american...

it the African turn.... Togo, Angola, Ivory Coast, Tunisia, T & T, Ghana represented them... only tunisia took part in previous WC b4... so it very difficult to judge which team wil do well... but Ivory Coast is actually one of the African hope... but they r place in the Group of Death... they eventually lost to argentina and holland on 2-1 to both team... but they won against S&M which is sth for them to cheer abt... i tink they wil do well in the next WC if they r not place in such a difficult group... for togo, angola and T&T did well in their 1st outing in WC... this gave them good experience even though the 3 of them combine to lose 7 games and only manage 2 draws and no win among them... tunisia hav a bad outing based on their standard... i believe this result is not wat they hav expected... the best africa team this time round is Ghana... who went past the 1st round.... only to be defeated by Brazil the defending champion... it 3-0... but it a pity for them... they should hav at least score 1 goals... so sad for them.... but from this world cup... we can see tat africa wil hav a chance to achieve good result in the coming world cup... cos most of them r quite young... so good luck to the african...

ok... eyes very tired le... wil continue tml with the biggest and most successful continent tat took part in this WC... wil try to analyse all the europe... Wil oso analyse one of the most powerful continent which is South America... and oso australia which almost get past italy... only to the last last min penalty from totti....

ok... good nitez to everyone... byebye...

2006-07-11T23:54:00.000+08:00

Haiz...

time now... 11.51pm... saw her online but do not hav the urge to tok to her.... donno y... maybe scare she is busy ba... juz got the feeling tat this few weeks she juz don feel like toking to mi... haiz... i ask her y... she told mi tat maybe she is too busy and ask mi not to tink too much... wat should i do... i really donno... should i take the initiative...? i m a guy anyway...?

haiz... someone pls teach mi wat to do... haiz...

2006-07-10T21:34:00.000+08:00

haiz... today is really a very sad day for mi... haiz.... kanna scolded by my god sis.... we hav been very close last time.... but donno wat happen... this few weeks we hav not been contacting each other... today she ask mi to do sth.... but due to some reasons... i forgotten abt it... so when she found out tat i didnt do... she called mi and so called scolded mi... anyway it sth i expected.... it alway like this whenever i did i wrong thing i wil definitely get scolded by her.... then i wil juz hav to listen and try to change myself.... but whenever i did sth for her or sth good she wil nv like show her gratitude.... haiz... donno wat can i do to change this... anyway i tink bcos of this time... i tink our kinship wil end here le ba.... last time we hav alway say we wil be jiejie and didi forever and it a promise... for mi no change.... hope tat it wil continue to last ba... i don hope it wil juz end like this... oh god... pls give mi a way... pls... haiz... sobz...

2006-07-10T04:33:00.000+08:00

It going to penalty le... wil be very exciting... quite sad to see this type of ending actually.... but nvm... there wil be a winner now... haha....

ok... byebye...

2006-07-10T04:22:00.000+08:00

WAT THE HELL HE DOING???

WAA WAA WAA!!! OMG... wat is zidane doing...???? aiyo... so stupid...

time now 4.19am le watching world cup final... it extra time... 22min liao... juz saw zidane kanna send off... haiz... donno wat the hell he doing....

anyway juz see whether france stil can win... without zidane, vieira and henry ba...

byebye... back to the game le.... byebye....

2006-07-08T01:21:00.000+08:00

New Start...

I m back... Actually got an old blog de... but forget user name le... so nvm... let's make it a new start for mi.... Hope tat everything wil change for the better ba....

It already 1.20am... haiz... this few day feeling quite low... haiz... Cos i felt tat she juz don wanna tok to mi.... donno y... the feeling is different... haiz.... she said she was busy... believe her ba...

Today took my NAPFA in school... So sad for my 2.4km run.... wat the.... my best time was 10 min 50 sec during sec 4 which was 3 years ago... today??? haiz.. it was 17.03... which is around 6 min slower... Wat the hell... sobz... nvm from this run it tel mi tat i should train now le... All my friend muz support mi ok??? Especially dine, kel, ys, ps, penny, ch, yd and raymond ok??? the 8 of u wil be my best friends alway... U R THE BEST.... haha... Hav been out for a few time with them le... haha... every week definitely got one day tat we wil meet de.... whenever i meet them i feel realll happy.... and all of us wil be like BIG KID... haha... m i rite??? cherish the time with them.... hope they wil tink the same ba.... haha... we wil be meeting to go eat prata at thomson next week(wed)... looking forward to see them again... haha.... we can play again... haha...

Tml saturday i might be meeting Dine after her work ba... at compass point... for dinner.... for the whole afternoon i wil be staying at home doing nth ba....

Ok... back to the topic... my new start to this blog... it called peedan15... y izzit called this name? it bcos my powerpuffgirl gave mi the name peedan(centuries eggs...) de.... donno y oso... nv ask for the reason... as for 15 it my favourite number... tat all.... as for when i wil update my blog...???? should be almost everyday ba... so friend out there muz everyday come see ar.... btw i juz cant sleep.... haiz... donno y... maybe tinking of her ba.... haiz... nvm...

i wil stop here now le.... donno wat to write le...

This Blog wil be updated tml... haha... byebye...